ChelleBELL .

Hollyoaks! ste

2010-10-30T00:50:00.006+11:00

Ste from Hollyoaks.
aint he cute <3

HI! just posting up new gay storyline! :))
its from this uk soap drama called

Hollyoaks..

current storyline : Ste & Brendan .
u can watch it on this two channels.
http://www.youtube.com/user/bth5281
http://www.youtube.com/user/anthonydlangford

Also, there use to be another Gay storyline on hollyoaks.. You guys might of have known..
JPC , JPK ? ? remember them? thats right.

John Paul & Craig .
John Paul & Kerion .

you can watch their storyline on here too ..
http://www.youtube.com/user/cjisdabest147
http://www.youtube.com/user/kimbaforeva

but they've been put off the show for about 2-3years now.. im glad that theres a new gay storyline up again ^_^ ...

bye for now. hope you guys are well.

Chelle
x

oh boy, im bad into the moods..

2010-09-21T23:04:00.002+10:00

HI y'all.. wow,, when was the last time i actually blogged? ... its been awhile.. yes it has..
i dont usually blog unless i got something exciting to write about or something depress..

yes u've guessed it right.. its the 'depress' side of me today..

hmm i havent been feeling awsome these past week.. why? well, its because of this guy i met.. omg i dont even wanna talk about it because it sounds so lame... =_=

anyways long story to short...
his name is leon. he lives in the United kingdom..
i dont think i need to write any further.

I made my mum and sister upset because of what i've done & havent done... man... everyone i see is hooking up with someone.. my sisters all have a partner except me.. i dont really mind that because i like being single becuase i have no worries.. but.. its just .. sometimes u are in need of love, comfort and warmth of someone who u really care ..

it seems that everytime i fall in love.. nothing comes out good...

im so goddamn ugly. im not worth anyone's time.

2010-07-30T00:43:00.001+10:00

zomg i met callum from masterchef..

<3 <3 <3 im gonna tell to the whole world now bwahahaha.......
he was soooooooo nice to me....... ^_^ i just finished tafe and i was still in my chef pants.. and he spotted me!! ehehhehehehehehee.......

im on cloud 9. :D

CHELLE .

2010-06-26T11:18:00.004+10:00

its funny how things just come and go, just like that...

its just been 2 weeks.. and i've just fucked something up...

i met a guy two weeks ago.. we talked from day to night,, at that time i felt so happy.. because i finally found smoeone that isnt GAY that i have feelings for! so yes we talked and talked.. we even made plans int the 3 weeks holiday we are going to have. but i dont know what happend....

before all this happend.. i like looking up people dream. cus i think that theres always a reason behind a dream.. and my frend hated it.. but i would look it up anyways, just for my own benifit..

2-3days before we stopoped talking.. he told me that he dreamt that his dog died in his arm.. and i searched it up. and this is what it says

Dream Decoder ;
If the dog is dead or dying, then it indicates a loss of a good friend. Alternatively, it represents a deterioration of your instincts.

... hmm.. scary or not? u decide.

i dreamt that i told him i didnt wanna talk to him or know him anymore so he moved to another grp when we were in a team.. we didnt talk.... even though i can see him in front of me.. when i woke up i cried.. its like having a bad dream.. i dont wanna cry but my tears just came out when i woke up... do u get that feeling when ur really sad/upset. that the heart physically start to hurt and ache...?? maybe it was from my previous love.. i went through a real bad heartbreak period.. and my heart ached for days and days.. it felt like my heart was going to brust...
and right now.. just a small heartbreak from this.. is causing that pain in my chest ... its too weak..

Dad's 50th birthday

2010-06-07T15:38:00.011+10:00

Best dish ever ate ; Sashimi Lobster

Golden Moon Palace, Sussex St
Banquet includes Private Room (karaoke & Mahjong).

.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

2010-05-01T22:30:00.002+10:00

well, i just went on this site called 'Fridae'.
its just a gay site where u meet people and read articles related to homosexaulity..
anyways.. i saw this msg sent in my inbox.. i LOL-ed

heres what this guy sent me.

wauselan:

''Hi

If you enjoy sex with a western guy then message me or add on MSN :

~~wauselan~~@hotmail.com

I am in Sydney Sunday night and you look like you might enjoy being fucked

Cheers, ''

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH..

2010-04-27T21:19:00.001+10:00

Gays of our lives event

2010-04-12T16:22:00.003+10:00

Christian and Oliver(VL), Deniz and Roman(AWZ), Carsten and Lenny, Kyle and Oliver, Alles Was Zählt, Dante’s Cove, GREEK, Gute Zeiten Schlechte Zeiten, One Life To Live, Queer as Folk, and Verbotene Liebe was at the GOOL event!

Everyone said they were lovely people and they had the best time of their life! Thank you to the actors for coming and we will always be supporting you.

You can find more information about GOOL event at :
http://gaysofourlives.org/
http://www.eskimokissproject.wordpress.com/
http://gaydaytime.proboards.com/index.cgi?board=general&action=display&thread=719&page=1

친구 사이? (Just friends?)

2010-04-12T15:27:00.003+10:00

Summary :
Min-soo is on leave from the military and visits his boyfriend Seok-yi. While having fun out on the town, they run into Min-soo mother's mother! When the Min-soo's mother asks about their relationship, Min-soo replies "... just friends." Making things more complicated, Min-soo's mother ends up sleeping between them that night!

Review: (spoilers)
Chingoo-sai? (Just Friends?) was very light hearted, sweet film. Although, it was very short (30mins). But i did enjoy it.. There was some good kissing scenes in there, i didnt expect the end to be a happy ending though

2010-03-20T17:54:00.003+11:00

spanish music video for the eurovison song contest 2010!!

veryyy cutee..

Lorena & Sergio Lara | Amor Magico
Uploaded by Torgen_am_Morgen. - Discover more life & style videos.

2010-03-14T21:13:00.002+11:00

Christian & Oliver - part 265

most recent episode.

Same sex marriage allowd in Washington DC!

2010-03-14T21:03:00.002+11:00

Washington DC signed the bill legalizing marriage for the same-sex couples on march 3!:))

Equal rights for homosexuals are growing♥

Sexy Sunday.

2010-03-14T21:00:00.003+11:00

yum yum.

oh.. just a little eye candy for you guys out there ;)

Photography : Rick Day

You belong with me - same sex verison

2010-03-14T20:56:00.002+11:00

Students from the university of Rochester in the united states have decided to make a gay verison of You belong with me – Taylor Swift. It’s extremely cute..!

Greek

2010-03-04T02:07:00.006+11:00

CALVIN & GRANT!

Summary : This series, called Greek is about college.. Calvin, who is open and gay moves into a dorm which he soon finds out that his roommate is gay. They end up together and furthers their relationship.
Watch the video to find out what happens! (:

Fama A Bailar

2010-03-04T02:01:00.003+11:00

NEW VID!!
Javi & Victor

its not exactly a story line between two gay guys..

What people have said that it's a reality show from Spain called Fama A Bailar. The best description that they think is.. it's a mix between So You Think You Can Dance and Big Brother (Ana says not quite, but close). Javi and Victor were not together before the show. They met during the audition rounds. Javi came into the show on 10-6-09 and Vic came in on 10-20-09. The first clip of them together romantically aired on 11-3-09 (That's our first video).

which is this.

part 2 is uploaded too.

My summary: I've watch a couple of clips of Javi & Victor and they make quite a cute couple.. they're really cute together in the house, espicially when they hug and kiss.. showing alot of PDA! i hope they just continue subbing more! i cant wait for the next updates.

Eastenders

2010-02-16T18:37:00.006+11:00

C & S

Gay blog.

2010-02-08T22:08:00.007+11:00

well lately i've been watchin gay films and soaps and i will do some slight change to my blog. I will be talking about gay topics and gay films.. anything thats related to homosexuality :))

Gay Soap opera
Verbotene Liebe

If you're not familiar with this series, it originates from a German soap titled Verbotene Liebe (Forbidden Love), and basically follows the relationships and interactions between a group of young 20-something friends living in Cologne and Düsseldorf, Germany.

The performances both actors Jo Weil (Oliver) and Thore Schölermann (Christian) have been putting on in this series makes for probably hands down the most believable male/male romantic relationship I've seen from any soapsI've come across thus far. I can't say enough about it!!
If you want to watch the full story about Christian and oliver, subscribe to ichglotzutube's youtube channel to keep up on the latest English translated episodes!

heres a snip of the vid.

Credits to Lostaway

My mummy.

2010-02-01T00:39:00.004+11:00

... ive been ever so upset since i came back from malaysia... whilst being in malaysia, i spent time with my family and siblings... all of a sudden, coming back to Syd.. it feels so different..

the loudness and happiness became to lonely, quiet....... which leads to sadness...
i miss my mum so much.... i've cried every single night.. i just miss her so much..

u know.. maybe the people who reads this doesnt know how im feeling at the moment.... getting seperated from your mother at the age of 12.. the stage where you quite yet still dont know what is happening and why 'mummy' has to leave. Though still understood that parents didnt get along together. That year was the hardest for me to accept the fact that she had to leave - to go overseas.

Every year, around december my sister and i would visit her and enjoy the time that we had.. Few years later, getting older, i finally knew what was going on and why 'mummy' had to leave and slowly, in malaysia between my mother and her mother's sister (ah yee) got into a huge fight.. technically it wasnt a fight... the story is kept hidden as i do not want people knowing about it.. but all i can tell u is that the situation caused my mum and them to go to police and bottles throwing around... and it was all because of rumor.. it was all about us...

i will never forgive that person who destroyed my mother's reputation, her scars on her body, the trouble her 'ah yee' caused her..... thats why i dont want to leave her side.. after all the pain she went thru.. although she had a lot of helper and supporter....

This time going back to malaysia, spending time with my mummy and bonding our relationship again, made me realised more and more things.. leaving a mother is the hardest thing to do for a mum and the child..... for the boys who read this.. MAY or MAY not understand the feeling of the mother's beloved child when leaving them.

Thats why you could say, right now im a mummy's little girl.

mummy .. =[

Chelle.

Holidays

2009-12-21T20:42:00.002+11:00

HI,,, so long i havnt bloggedd! (mind my broken malaysian english.. >. >)
well, no time and just cant be bothered anymore.. something happend with my layout settings .. and i changed it now..

im currently in Malaysia and having a blast! :)
im gonna get a massage soon by this .. malay chick.. my aunt drives her here and she massage me for an hour.. GUESS HOW MUCH IT COST!!.. 30buks for an hour.. hahaha ... aus money is only 10buks... lawl.... and its a full bodaayy massage! :D

anyways.. if you wanna see whats been happening and where i went around malaysia... well its all up on facebook!! been eating so much and enjoying it so much here.. i dont need to think abt anything and just enjoy..

(:

Also, i bought a kabaya to wear. its cute!

Tho, im still do worry about next year.. because i am not able to make it to my enrollment and i sent email to the tafe abt my lateness and i have to rearrange when to enroll. (: s'all gud ahha..... excited to go tafe and see what its like!..

Enjoying life

Chelle.

2009-11-07T01:58:00.011+11:00

Whats AHEAD

whats ahead of me? i dont know. only time will tell...

helllloo READERs! how are my babies? (= ahaha.. im in a happy mood... im going to melb tmrw and i just cant wait to see my special person... his names sean.. thats right... its not thinh.. its sean.. i think lol.

its confusing.. altho me and sean have a connection... i still do love thinh alot more than he can imagine! LOL. but right now, i think i need to move on..... and i hope i can and will. zzz....... im so sleepy. its 2am.. remind never to blog at 2am+ in the morning = fail!

anyways, this sean guy here.. well ... ^^ lets just see how things go for us hmm. (: a little info abt him... well hes 20 soon ( nov 14) to be exact.. he lives in melb, in tafe studying hospitality management(i think?) & accounting and

and NO,HES NOT ASIAN. hes italian/aussie ^^

lol.. (: anyways, im off to bed now!
hope to update some good news by next week! hope y'all good

Chelle

2009-10-31T15:15:00.007+11:00

my L's

AAHHAhahahaha, omggggggggg I got my Ls!!! wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooot. i failed my license last time and i had to Re-sit for it today... i was reallllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllly scared but managed to pass it. zomg. i would take a pic but then my details are on the Card and my FUCKING face is SO dam hideous.. probably scare all my viewers (which are only like 2 LOL) away. meh!!!!

Felt like i uploading another video here.

Gee - SNSD (Girls Generation)

Gee gee gee gee baby baby baby~~
Gee gee gee gee baby baby baby~~

neomu banjjak banjjak nooni booshuh no no no no no
neomu kkamjjak kkamjjak nollan naneun oh oh oh oh oh
neomu jjarit jjarit momi ddeullyuh gee gee gee gee gee
o juhjeun nunbit (oh yeah~) oh joeun hyanggee (oh yeah yeah yeah~)

AND AND AND,..,,

SeoHyun♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
envyyyy...

Chelle

2009-10-29T01:23:00.002+11:00

Mystery Man.

helllllllllooooo yup yup its time for another blogpost guys & girls! though, i dont think people even read it, but i write it for my own sake because i will look back and see what an idiot i was writing all these rubbishhh.. hahaha anyhoo.. How's life you asked? well, its going pretty good at the moment..
I've got everything set!

~~Finished my HSC on friday 23rd.~~
~~Handed in my Tafe application forms~~
~~Bought tickets to melbourne~~
31st oct - Re-sit for my L's
7th nov - Have lunch with my Gay uncle.
8th~10th nov -Go Melbourne -> try to visit all my mates while im there.
11th nov - Ivy's 18th birthday.
13th nov - Emily's 22nd birthday.
14th nov - Anna's 18th birthday.
16th nov - Off to Malaysia.

So right now all i need to do is study for my Ls and then once i've recived that, i have to clean out all the shiet thats in my room before even going anywhere! AND YES, im going melb, and YES it is because of him! people can say im whipped... but i dont think i am.. >< i just want to see how things will go while im actually there with him.. so wish me luck guys! ^^
plus while im down there im also going to meet a .. nice friend of mine.. that 'mystery man' as you can say, for now.. ^^

Well readers, im going to end my post here.. because it seems that my sentences arent making quite any sense anymore.. due to the lack of sleep ive been having these past days ..... =_=

our begining could just be the end?

Chelle

2009-10-18T22:20:00.002+11:00

The object of my affection

is a great film.

i really like one of the quote; Which has opened me up after hearing it.

''I dont think one should be too hard on themselves if the object of ones affection returns the favour with less enthusiasm than one might of hope.''

And I wanna be able to look at you and not feel so hurt by you
Thinh & Park is real and thinh and i are not.
i want you to be with me.. i want you to love me they way i love you
i dont really wanna see who you are at all..
i know i know.. you can choose who you love
Chichi/Park was the best thing that ever happened to us.
Because at least he got me to tell the truth.
and knocked me out of my senses.

Chelle

2009-10-12T22:58:00.007+11:00

Thinh♥

well, hows everyone lately? fine i hope!! these past few days i've been extremly occuipied with my two lovely friends who came all the way down/up? from melbourne to Sydney JUST for my 18th birthday. i cannot even say how much im glad they did. As expected, me and my sisters 18th birthday turned out quite good! Also thanks to marvin for hosting during my bday party and making everyone laugh. hehe. i have such wonderful friends!♥ i love you guys if it wasnt for all my friends .. i wouldnt be who i am today! thank you. Now for some pictures.

First i'll start put some pictures of me and my bro.. yes this was our first meeting after knowing each other over a year and a bit! And YES its that guy i've talked about in my blogpost..... (:

Well guys there he is! ♥

Sis&Bro *huggles*

♥

Sally(thinhs cusin) & i

tho, i have to admitt something to all my readers. i've mention in the past that i used to like him and you guys may think i've probably lost feelings for him aye? well technically no not really. Though i did have a period of time when i didnt talk to him for a month.. (that was the time i lost feelings) bt whenever he would talk to me, it just came back.. so.. i dont know.. Especially the times when he just randomly would hug me while were at the city.. or the time when he would just hold my hand while we walk thru the park.... I dont understand.. maybe melbourne people are like that???...... This isnt making any better..

But i know that theres no chance anyways. NO POINT DREAMING MICHELLE. i just have to get over with it and find someone else new. (& NO MORE LOOKING FOR GAY BOYS)

Twins 18th.

Group shot

Family Shot

Marvin hosting.. haha ^^ lol @ Thy

OHYEEEEEEEHHH NIGGAS. we BODYJAMMING on my 18th :D

i kept saying to myself.. no im not gna bodyjam.. not going to bodyjam.. but at the end.
kim convived me doing it with her <3>

last and OF COURSE NOT least! my favourtie
peopleeee. ahhaha ♥♥

-Misses Thinh

Chelle

2009-10-07T01:00:00.003+11:00

BIRTHDAY.

GUESS WHAT? its me and my twin sister's birthday in 2 days! were turning 18. hopefully things will turn out sucessfully! oh oh another thing..
Thinh & sally (thinhs cusin) is coming to sydney for my birthday! cant wait! (:
haha.. if you dont know who thinh is.. i've written about him in my previous blogs!

Well i shall blog later~ oh ya, another thing.. i got my year 12 examinations coming up so even more busy! >< then after i shud be free and in Nov. im going to msia! WOOO. i hope to meet some nuffies there!! XD ....

LOOK how much lexi has grown! ^^

Take care guys
Chelle

2009-09-23T16:15:00.009+10:00

ESKIEE BBY

HELLOO PEOPLE!. i wont blog much but pictures will be upload onto here!
well just a little update about my life.. i havent been going school this past few weeks because of my lazyness and the fact that i know that theres basically no point going school because all we do is sit there and 'revise' so.. i dont bother.. (:
i shall post some pictures ~

OH ITS GOING TO BE MOON FESTIVAL SOON! :D

pic taken by me (:

ANOTHER THING HAPPENED TODAY IN
AUSTRALIA,
SYDNEY,
NEW SOUTH WALES.

WE HAD AMAZING DUST STORM EARLY IN THE MORNING..MY FIRST TIME SEEING SUCH THINGS!. it seems like we were back in the 'sepia days'
WHEN I SAW HOW RED THE SKY WAS.. I WAS LIKE OMG... LMAO FUCK THAT SHIT AS IF IM GOING SCHOOL.. THEN I STARTED COUGHING LIKE HELL AND SNEEZING..

i think i got allergy.. haha..

COMPARISONS.

NEUTRAL BAY, BEFORE AND AFTER

SYDNEY HARBOUR, BEFORE AND AFTER

Chelle

2009-09-15T23:23:00.012+10:00

MOUSSAKA

This blog is a respond to Nuffnang Leggos Promotion.

hello! i havnt blogged in a while because im toooo busy with other things and blogging isnt one of the important things thats on my list at the moment! Well, lets catch up shall we? A month ago nuffnang sent me a package and inside was two leggos sauces

And what i had to do with it was to make a dish under 15 minutes BUT, i misread and made a dish which took an hour lol.. meh!

Anyways.. im going to post up some pictures of the dish i made as well.

cooking beef and onion

Putting moussaka in the oven

finished moussaka... doesn't look that appealing?

OKAY ENOUGH ABOUT THE LEGGOS PROMOTION.!

i shall tell you what i did in the weekends lately.. I went to this thing which was a soompi Meet up and was held at Bicentenial Park.
Here are some of the photos Kathymon & leah took.

I think theres more photos but people havent quite uploaded them yet... On sunday morning marvin called me to come out to Olympic park for a jog... and what do you know, it was directly opposite where the soompi meet up was held.. that was weird, twice in a row lol..

anyways, me, marvin,ivan,ashley got our bikes which marvin shouted and rode around the park.. which i might add here.. that was 30degrees ++ and was so hot... we also did alot of exercising under the hot hot blazing sun and i died... soon later we pickd KIMMY up from the station and marvz jogged all the way back to the place we hired our bikes LAWL. Around 4pm we took a rest and relaxed so that we can do some Bodyjam at Ashley's house. OH boy, i can tell you.. this was my first time i've sweated so much when we did one of the Bodyjam track called 'chacha heels'.. i was touching my neck.. and it felt like i was in the shower.. =S Lmao..

After that intense bodyjam session that marvin instructed ^^ Ashley's parents had made Beef goulash which was the bombshitniz! :D lol thank youuuuu ^^ Soon later Ashley dropped us all home because it was getting late haha.. thanks ash♥

i ~~should~~ am going plan something in the future! To repay you guys for everything you have done for me. ♥♥♥♥♥
Though, i may not express my love verbally, for you guys , but deep down im very very thankful and glad that i met such lovely people!

i LOVE YOU GUYS ♥♥

♥

Chelle

2009-09-07T21:47:00.006+10:00

asdfghjkl;'

~~i hate my life.~~

~~FML.~~

i guess things arent as bad as i thoguht it would be?
but i wished it could be better though.
as one of my good good good friend said.

Marvz -
*it will come -- but not at the pace you want it to be
*but it will come

and the fact that this is just a challenge from god.

Marvz -
*the opportunity will come as all things - things will come to change
*change is inevitable as long as the time passes, and seasons change people change too
cнєιιє -
*i hope so, i do hope so..

once again, i will thank you again.

everything happens for a reason. what done is done.
try&not to regret .

ur ruining my life v.g

2009-08-28T22:40:00.009+10:00

moody

EVERYTHING,EVERYONE is so annoying. there are so many questions to ask but they will all say im 'complaining, bragging, rambling on and on and on'... if they think im like that then i will say no more... if you want to think that way then i have no choice but to agree with you, as you can see by now im really up to the point where i have NO energy to argue back.. if you dont value the thing i give you. whats the point anymore.. or am i just useless?

i am trying to help you people but i guess i am not wanted anymore. i want to leave, i want to just go away from all this. im in such a confused state at the moment.

how much human life is lost in waiting

chelle

2009-08-26T22:43:00.008+10:00

ho ho homosexuality (:

yes, that topic has yet arise again! i cant help but to BRAG about my experiences and the lifestyle of this sort of environment, though its not like its DIFFERENT or anything. I just like it? i dont know why, it makes me feel.. at home LOL (:
The majority of my readers is gay or bi i assume?? okay i havent posted much lately anythign that is related to the homosexual lifestyle or anything which is BAD :( this was kinda the WHOLE point of having a blog too! not to ramble on about my life lol.

these past few days i've got to know one of my friend tht open up to me about his sexuality and i was the first one to know about him. im glad he told me because at the same time i feel quite special .. something i havent felt in a long long time..

Why is there so many gay people in the society? could it be the influences in the public making people gay or is it biological? i have no idea but no matter what it is, the numbers are rising! I have no complain about it or what so ever but i do have to say.. i go loko over them. some are good and some are bad.. you see, i have a habit of drooling when i see a gay couple together. i have no idea why but i like it. Now let me get to the bad part about it.. if you know me, the majority of my friends are gay or bi and i often hang out with them but then i realised that... i dont actually have a straight guy friend i hang out at all.... i see guys hooking up with other guys.. and then im there.. left alone... ho hor leen ar (so lonely)

sim bo yan yut chai, jing fun gnor jeh by gnor self ar.... gnor mm seong tai dou hei dey yut chai and then lau fun gnor tong guai yut chai LOL mm ji jo meh lei?..

tung mai ar,... gnor got tuk that alot of people mm jun yi gnor.. maybe because gnor jo chor yeh before but.. gor gor yun mm forgive gnor.. dim guy ar? please tong har gnor gong la.. lei seong jo meh ? lei seong gnor dim ar?????

ps. I've finish my trials people! im so glad it is over, though, finding out my results was worse then i expected.

comming up events:

AUG 30 - bodyjam/bodyattk session held by marvin @ fairfield leisure
cant wait! wanna see them cus i miss them soooo much. also looking forward to meetin eric nguyen again. tht funni kient

1 month and a bit till my 18th birthday. venue cancelled?? because my bro-in-law hasnt got his new house yet. not too sure yet, so its still undecided.
anyone got suggestion where i shud do it at?

i shall end my post here.
life hasnt been the same, its like a road with no end

chelle

2009-08-22T12:46:00.002+10:00

how high is the price of love?

if love were standing in front of me
and asked me; 'what are you prepared to give me?'

i dont know what i would say. Wait. Maybe i'd ask: ''what have i done to you? Why did you jerk me around like that?'' And then i'd shake him till his thoughts get whirled around like mine do.
like a storm in a glass of water.
And still, whatever hapens and who ever sent my feelings to war: i still believe in the power of love. Maybe i'm stupid. Maybe naive. But maybe hope dies last. Even though my heart is lying in pieces on the ground right now and other poeple are dancing and samba on it. I can feel that in the end, love will give me a chance. Its just that its hard not to lose faith. Especially when love stabs you in the back, you will have doubts. Because love also hurts.

I wish i could get my courage back to leave the past behind me. With renewed strength, without old wounds. Thats why i let my soul write these words.

xoxo Mishelle

2009-08-11T21:40:00.008+10:00

Stress and sick

okay, i know i havent been blogging much but i have a GOOOOOD reason!!! lol im currently in year 12 which means i have my HSC trials which is stressful, and of course if there is exams on, means STUDY STUDY STUDY!.. which im not even doing ..... Also another reason why ive been so busy lately that i've fallen quite sick. NO i dont have swine flu, i went to the docs after skl BY MYSELF yesterday at campise to check if its serious but he said its cold and flu. THANK GODDDDD lol

but i will recap on what i did the past week. went to my uncle's bday bbq at ku-ring-gai national park which cost $11 just to get in there! wtf??? =\ but we did anyways and it such a nice scenery!

lol, not so pretty huh? i was bushwalkn and saw some oyster lol

i'll keep it short and simple as i shall study soon.

after that, we dropped by my uncles house to get something off him and two kukkaburra dropped by the front porch so my other uncle fed some food.

never been so close to a kukkaburra LOL

the following day, we went to curl curl Beach... which was almost an hour drive ....... T_T with the dog running around the back seat of the car... =.=

yes i am very lazy so im gonna cut to the chase. overall it was a good weekend.

now to study my ass off and forget some shit thats been on my mind lately.. Anyways..

HSC Trials Examinations

week 1
~~Monday~~ ~~- English paper 1 and IPT~~
~~Tuesday~~ ~~-English paper 2~~
Wednesday - Food Technology
Thursday - DAY OFF FTW (:
Friday - Exploring early Childhood

week 2
Monday - day off :D
Tuesday - Work studies
Wednesday - Hospitality Practical
Thursday - Hospitality Theory
Friday - YAY FINISH

then i will be stressfree for another 6 more weeks then my HSC comes up again.......

till then!

ps. i promise u tht my next post will be something related to gay!!
^^

just stop it already
xoxo MisCHELLE

2009-08-01T12:11:00.012+10:00

Australian idol 2009

sorry but this is a MUST. have you seen the new Aus idol promo yet?? theres this guy who looks like Zac efron and he is soooooooo GOOD LOOKING!
if you havent watched it yet heres a vid of it

he comes out at 0:17-0:19

cant wait for this years Aus idol!!!!! :D

Wednesday 29.07.09

One of my bestie, anna invited me, tiff and charlie to her mum's friend wedding. So of course i agreed, but that included me not to attend school on a wednesday, so there was i thinkin.. school or wedding?? i was actually joking about the thinking part. sif miss wedding for SCHOOLLLLLLL pfttt yu wish nigga G. (:

So Wednesday morning rather than wearing my uniform, we all wore something semi-formal. Charlie came to pick us up around 10 cus the reception thing starts at 10:45 or something.

in the car to hurstvilleeee (:

after the signing was done, we went to YUMCHA (sunny) at hurstville and eat for our brunch which soon finished after an hour or so.Then, walked around hurstville till 3~4pm when all the school kids come out... so we left before it got a bit too crowded.

OFF WE DROVE TO THE CITY for the WEDDING DINNER ( well charlie driving us 4) lol. We got there around 5pm. did some walking around and shopping for a bit till 6:30pm when the dinner starts.

Right before the dinner was about to start, we as always wanted to take luvvooss (:

me,helen,tiff & charlie weeeeee (:

more luvos

nicely placed tableware (at Zilver restaurant)

cold dishes.. meattt.. yummm (:

LOBSTERRRRR!!

the married couple drinking champane.

Overall it was an awsome night, though i didnt take much picture of the rest of the food because i wasnt bothered.

Thanks to anna&helen's mum for inviting me,Tiffany & charlie to the wedding.

(just because i havent wrote anything about homosexuality
DOES NOT MEAN IVE GOT OUT OF THAT PHASE
ALRIGHT? just nothing has been happening
in my life... literally..)

pleased, yet i have too much on my mind to
even suppose to be happy.
i wonder, have you forgiven me yet?
xoxo mishChelle

2009-07-28T17:28:00.011+10:00

i am a FAILURE.

is what i perceive myself as... i am a major failure in general... today in our hospo class we got out assessment marks back, and what did i get?..

67%......
67%!!!

o

okay i know im not good in my subjects but when i saw that and especially in one of my favourite class.. i thought, straight away.. im a total failure.. the international student girl in front of me even got higher than me. she got 84%...

I bet right now, everyone will say, 'its your own fault, if u dont study u get shit marks'.. well i do study its just that i cant concentrate as well if i dont physically do the thing. anyways, im not making sense here at the moment..
all i know that im a failure.. in life

im not smart, im not beautiful, im not a person who can socialise and get along with others easily..
in fact im the total opposite.. im dumb, ugly, not to mention fat and boring.. im nothing. everyone has at least something but i have nothing. nothing is good about me.. funny how one thing becomes into something else...i really wonder sometimes, what if i was no longer in this world anymore i dont think it will make much impact on people.. okay, maybe a couple of close friends and family here and there.. but big woop..like anyone cares.. argh asfdghjlk i dont know why im even thinking of this.. maybe this is karma...

i have to admit, i've done some bad things in the past.. worst things you can imagine. All i want to do it to forget and let it go.. i want to ERASE EVERYTHING.
FUCK

and now to the people ;

to the people i've hurted or that i didnt realised that i've hurt them in some sort of way. I am truly & deeply sorry for all the pain i've caused you. I never ever wanted to hurt you nor wanted it to happen that way. I think you know who you are once you have read this. The loving friendship we had just went away like that and i am the cause of it. It was foolish of me to do such things, but now i've change and hope to make things better for us. Again, i will say it one more time. i am truly and deeply sorry. x

- sympathy
xoxo Mishelle`

2009-07-25T16:26:00.004+10:00

MOST MISSED TV SHOW

PB& J OTTER
i miss this show sooo much :D
does anyone remember this? ><

2009-07-23T01:35:00.004+10:00

PARTY YET SICK.

since my last blog post, i have recived some sort of protection amulet? from my older sister for my sleeping habits due to the bad dreams that i have been having. eg- people dying, head coming off, blood dripping on the walls.. etc

Holy water is placed inside the cruxifix

After that, i havent had a bad dream, which is good (: Though during last week, i have been having signs of flu/coughing symtoms coming up that i've took notice and took medicine but dont think it had made any progess...

Friday 17.07.09

It was Sam's 23 birthday so we decided to eat at hurracaines but it was fully booked so instead we headed down to another restaurant which was just located downstairs not far from the original place. (i forgot the restaurant name lol)
The place had a nice cosy place filled with dim lights & famous for their ribs. so the majority of us ordered ribs, which i can tell you was DELICIOUS!

yummmmmm (:

After the nice lovely dinner, we headed to 'Sydney Karaoke' (korean one) and sam had a few too many...

That was about it..... got home around 2am =_=

Saturday 18.07.09

today i fantically searched something to wear for ivan's 18, we had to dress up as 80s so i managed to put some pink shit on and made myself look like 80s?? originally i was planning to go to cabramatta to meet a couple of my friends and then head off to ivan's with marvin at 6 but i never did bcus i too was late for the train. Once i got off the station, met up with marvz, took the cab at his house.. waiting outside for ashley which was susposingly '5 mins' wait and turnd out to be 15mins or so LOL. but it was allllllll good cus ivan kept poping out every now and then to keep us company (:

im guessing you guys wanna see how the night turned out aye?
well pictures are worth a thousand words.

the bday boii blowing his candles

semi grp foto?

when we got there, ashley and marvin was already dancing their ass off which i remind u that grabbed everyone's attention lol. But there i was.. sitting down eating and socialising a bit... lol but then after 2 bottles of beer (T_T ran out of cruisers) i was off my head. So i decided to join in Marvin, ashley,ivan doing bodyjam dances at the backyard. Everyone was just like.. =O THEN CAME THE QUESTIONS....
HOW DID THEY DO THAT!? omgg they're moving at the same time. do u guys do a class?? etc...

we stroke a pose when we saw the camera aiming at us lol

random group foto again (jordan n his beers =.=)

me&ivan
gosh i look so fugly compared to him lol

Ivan had a few too many drinks which he ended up throwing up in front of his house, with the help from marvin of course (: so after that we tucked ivan into bed and soon later he fell asleep lol..

(loads more foto on facebook)

That concludes the day.. well no not really (: LOL
around 2am, i was suspose to go to Anna's house to sleep but ended up going to Marvin's instead becus i was too tired and he had offered me a place to sleep but i didnt want to bcus ... ???? i dont know lol... i thoguht it would be inconvient for me to sleep at his but i ended up sleeping at his. Before going to bed i took a nice hot shower.. whilst we were going to sleep, we chatted till 3:40am(i think?) and decided that it was time for bed time :L

Woke up around 10 by a fone call from ivan! =.= lol which he also suggested to go bodyjam that day. My sis picked me up around 1 so that i could get ready to go bodyjam at 4:30. Meeting Marvin and ivan again for BJ @ parra, ivan told me that we were going to go watch movie after class since we had nothing to do. so i agreed.. but first we went to a thai restaruant to eat dinner. which was deliciousss :D:D:D:D once we got to the movie thingo.. the harry potter movie was full =\ so we just decided to go Max Brenner to EAT AGAIN...... =O

So me, eating there for the first time didnt quite know wat to order so instead we all ordered the same thing.

TWO FONDU *drooolllllllls*

and 2 waffle drizzled in warm chocolate with fruits & ice-cream
THIS WAS THE BOMBSHITNIZZZZZ :D

it was soooooooo effing nice..!!! i got sooo full tht i felt like vomitting lol.. we had leftover fondu so we 'ta pau' (take away) the food. lol

After that we headed back home, but before that, they wanted to drop me off first... while we were on the train we saw ivan's sister, marley. all i can say is marvin was so funny when she meets her....... LOLOLOLOL.. ivan if you are reading this, lol.. she reminds me of those honky drama pretty girls. ahha look forward to meeting her again (:

hope you had a great time ivan, &
I just wanna say, thank you marvin for everything.
really.... thankyou so much(:
LOVEEEE YOUU MARVZ
yur like a ~~daddy~~ bro or like a nigga G to me lol

- greatful to have such
awsum friends
xoxo Mishelle

Films

2009-07-16T12:03:00.007+10:00

As usual, i was watching some gay short films and i landed on this particular site which was full of Australian gay short films. Might i remind you, they were all shit acting and the story line was just weird.... While i was searching for more, my sis suggested a film.

sis - have you watched the UNSW one?
me - what?! they have a gay short film for UNSW?
sis - yeah, go on utube and just write 'UNSW gay short film'

so i did, and i watched it... overall i could say.. the script isnt as good. the acting isnt good too.. but the storyline is quite.. unique i guess?

MISMATCHED part 1

MISMATCHED part 2

So what do you guys reckon??

oh, i've also recently watch this gay film called DOG TAG. I can say, the main character is good looking and but story line wasnt as good as i expected to be but i think they could of done better rather than just ending the film just like that.

- SICK

xoxo Mishelle

HOLS

2009-07-10T23:27:00.006+10:00

hellllo peeps, chelle here (:

guess what?! its holidays ......for 2 weeks only though lol
also, in this two weeks i'll be having a under 18s rave(FAME) and bday parties to attend, this will be my last holiday for my High school year and i want to enjoy the most. The next holiday will be me studying hard out for my exams (Higher School Certificate) for year 12. So lets have this last holiday memorable and enjoying. (THO, I SHOULD BE STUDYING FOR MY HSC TRAILS when my school starts again)

i've also cut down on my updates on my blog due to the following reasons

Last minute sorting on school stuff
& most importantly being Lazy
lazy
lazy...

LOL

ps. Mardi Gras application for volunteering in 2010 is open on the 13th of july, so apply now (:
Mardi Gras is a gay & lesbian parade in sydney for more info visit here

i love D&G ads

♥ yu's all

xoxo Mishellee`

wtevr

2009-07-05T01:21:00.002+10:00

some people are just not worth it, you spend so much time with them,
put so much effort in them...

and what they do? ha...

fuck you.
i wish i never met you

xoxo Mishelle

Highlights pt1

2009-06-29T00:19:00.014+10:00

Saturday 28.06.09

Quite a hektic day i guess... we celebrated Thomas bday again. We had book 2 hotel room in the city near wynyard station called Sofitel Hotel. 'apparently' its a 5 star hotel and one of the rooms had the smallest toilet you've ever seen.. but the second room was quite bigger and much nicer. ; and OFCOURSE! i took some pictures :P

i was actually waiting in the car for the people to drive our car in the parking
lot because we cant drive in and park it ourselves.

look at all those mini alchie :D

bathroom( this was the bathroom tht was triple times bigger than the first one)

panorama shot of the room :) ~~thxs to my awsome photo skill~~

After checking in and gettin all dress up for the night out, we went to this nice japanese restaurant place called Kansai at wynyard, since it was a buffet, we just kept ordering and ordering.. which i ate 2 bowls of sashimi salad.. it was the bombshitniz :D
sadly i didnt say pictures on my phone, but i did take pics in my camera which i haven't uploaded yet due to the cause of laziness (:

After dinner, we headed down to Retro club and of course using my older sister's ID to get in as i am underage at the moment =[ When the sercurity was checking the ID card, i tried to look down and 'fix' my shoe... but really i was shitting myself & my palms was sweaty and the sercurity told me to look at her..

she looked at the ID,
looked at my face....
then look back at the ID
then my face......
then back at the ID...
*hands back to me*

at that time, i think i had a turtle head (: LOLOL jk.. After that, all i wanted to do was to have fun and enjoy the night. of course the help with 1 bottle of smirnoff and a shot of tequila made me PUMPED and go crazzayy, WOOOOOOOOOOOOO~

~~(pictures will be uploaded soon when i am bothered :)~~

outside the hotel room corridors takn pics lol

GROUP lol

Tiffany(twin sis) and i

to sum it all up, we danced 4 hours straight which caused some OLD FARTggooot to dance behind me and started to put his arms on my waist which freaked me out :D not because it was weird, its the fact that he was like double my age which means 27~30 so one of Thomas islander friend told him to 'fuck off' literally :) thanks mate! lol

Around 1~2am we headed back to the hotel because we were so tired and the music was shittttt assssss. While i was dancing i noticed my feet was getting sore because i was wearing heels and after we got out of the club, i couldnt handle it so all the girls took off their shoes and started walking barefoot back to the hotel.

no way im showin u my morning face.

tiff and charlie snuggled up der in the corner lol

Next morning we checked out and drove back home. While Thomas was driving & since i know there are quite a few malaysian bloggers out there who reads my blog i decided to take pictures of Sydney's scenery.

QVB ; shops (quite early in the morning thts y theres no one) and bus

All the Sydney people who read this.. thts rightttt...
the infamous 'TB/gangsta hang out, george st'

Market City... ish

then went Bankstown & had some VIET FOOOOD :D

more on my facebook
>>> ChelleBELL <<<

thts all for today folks
my story continues in
part 2
xoxo Mishelle

FOOOTYYY!!!

2009-06-27T11:20:00.009+10:00

thats RIGHTT nigga. i go for the doggiess all the way (:
its my first time going to the footys and i love it! you get this feeling in you.. its quite intense when your actually at the stadium. hehe and OF COURSE my first time going there, i took some pics (:

we were all waiting if we scored a goal.... look at everyone's head on the screen

and we did! LOL

our mascot... duh its a bulldog!

On thursday night - Thomas 24th birthday (bro-in-law)?

we just went to Karaoke in the city.

the cake. It was just close friends who went though,
Charlie (tiffs bf) who also came to meet my older sis for the first time.. he was quite neverous to meet her. But it turned out all good :)

Thomas and I

Well i'll stop here for now as im just about to go to his 2nd bday party at the city, were going to check in the hotel we booked and then have dinner at kansai and then clubbingggg!! :D
though, im in search for a ID so that i can get in.

- quite content

xoxo Mishelle

I MISS YOU

2009-06-25T00:04:00.004+10:00

I miss you
I miss you
I miss you

♥
~~i really wanan kiss you but i cant.~~
so, kiss me thru
the fone

(sorry for the random,
its dedicated to
someone special. )

xoxo Mishelle

Dolor

2009-06-22T22:28:00.021+10:00

im not quite bothered writing about Sunday..
so i'll just probably sum it all up in one go.

woken up quite early in the morning by my sister
got ready and went gym to practice a bit with marv.
Ivan & Ashley soon came after.
Did bodyJAM then straight after to bodyATTACK
which we completely soon after died...
So we decided to go korean BBQ at parra :D (marvz shoutd, thanks ♥)
it was fun!! but i was awfully quite cus i was so damn
tired and especially from bodyATTACK that just drain all my energy away.
And i theres something with me and eating rice when im tired,
it drains my energy quicker..?!? lol
Soon later, or should i say 2 hours later, Ashley drove us back
home with her car pumping bodyjam songs on. lol
thxs for the lift babes ♥

For you guys that doesnt know what bodyJAM and bodyATTACK is..
well heres a video i saw for the first time when marvin sent me a clip of bodyjam
which got me quite intrigued, but at the same time i thought,
oh gees this is going to be hard......but it not hard at all if you enjoy it!

and BodyATTACK

I dont really know why that girl in the vid is smiling while shes doing bodyattack.. cus seriously, i was no where near smiling while i was doing those =\

ANYWAYS, for a person saying that had said they didnt wanted to write about sunday.. i've written quite lot........

anyways, back to today.

I've been way too occupied with my school studies
that im about to have a breakdown. T_T

things that are coming up for this following week:

English essay, new product development - Tuesday
Early Childhood assignment + speech -Wednesday
Hospitality assessment, bro in law bday @city - Thursday
Atheletic Carnival - Friday
bro in law 2nd bday party + clubbing (if i can get in) - Saturday
my list goes on and on..

adding to that, everyday seems to be getting worse just in general. But i cant just lose it and lose faith on things. I feel to express all my feelings and emotions out but i dont want to brag my shit out on here...

People ask me, where do you see yourself in 5 years time?
to be honest with you, right now, where im heading off too, i cant even see myself more than a week time. I dont even expect 5 years.

-sigh

xoxo Mishelle

.

2009-06-21T23:28:00.004+10:00

Im just so tired.

bodyjam and bodyATTACK... i died

which will be the topic tmrw.

xoxo Mishelle.

Late night out

2009-06-21T11:02:00.011+10:00

hi there again!

yes, went out on sat night again, supposingly with my friends, but they all didnt end up comming so i was with her friend's instead... which i felt quite a bit awkward because i didnt talk much... untill the alchie came! LOL it was even more awkward when i was the only girl sitting on one side and the rest of the girls was sitting the other side... i didnt know the girls so i just sat next to Michael Nguyen and opposite me was Aaron Ho lol. a couple things that i felt that the dinner wasnt really good.

1. not much food ( 5 side dish among 10 people) =S
2. my friends all didnt end up coming
3. juust ugh ..

there was more alchie than food..
i think nao ordered
1 bottle of soju which made the girls GONE :S lol
5 big cups of alchie with grapefuit which i have no idea wat it is..
1 cup of.. somethign that monika drank which i have no idea too..
and then i ordered tequila sunrise :D

That tequila was strong, i didnt even drink half way and it made my face go red.... and i looked so ugly ................... T_T
and freakn seiya drank most of the grapefruit alchie, man.. hes such a alcoholic! lol the good thing michael kept me company the whole time! thank GOD!!!!! though, i've only met him 3~4 times and we acted like bros ;) nice guy

After dinner we left to go CEO karaoke and kevsaw's friend wanted to come. but adrian said they look like TBs that hanged around maccus alley way LOL! i was like, so? who care! but when i actually saw them.. i had doubts.. LOLL ( i get wat you mean now adrian lol)
So the person you least expect, went up to the so called 'gangstas' and told them not to come with us.... and guess who it was?? thats right. vincent goh
After he told us that he just went up to them we were just like..

what............................... O_O
hahahahhaha. so brave aye?

After that incidient we just headed off to Kae and sang some songs. Which then anna and dan end up showinggggggggg!! OMG bouts fucking time which also leaded to tiff and charlie who came 'WAYYYYYY TOO EARLY, way way too early man.. tsk tsk' (sacrasm intended)

i wanna speed things up.. after Kae we just got maccus to eat and charlie was suppose to buy alchie to drink after but it was too late and our last train was at 1.. and luckily we were quick enough to make it in time.. because the train we got on was the LAST TRAIN!! phewwww =_=

While we were walking around the city after Kae, i had a chat with thinh which i used anna's phone to call him because her phone has unlimited calls??

We had a long talk, well he didnt say much cus he was too busy playing 'rohan' =\ and we talked about some stuff.......... and yeah but i'll probably call him later in the week as well as our converstaion topic was not finished just yet.

(pics will be up soon which
then will be edited into this post)

girls and boys, thats all folks
till next time!

xoxo Mishelle

Gay PDA part 2

2009-06-15T18:40:00.022+10:00

No one must ever know, because if they do who knows what will happen.

Ok, so you really like this guy, I mean a lot more than you can explain to anyone. You’ve been out for ages, but it feels like everything has to be kept a secret.

Why should it be a secret though? Everyone else holds hands in the street. Even your parents do it, then there’s that odd peck on the cheek in full view of everyone - no one takes any notice of them though.

Why should you keep your feelings for him locked away? What makes it different from you doing it with the guy you like from your parents?

Bullying, harassment in school and in public
perhaps, these might just be some of the reasons why gays arent out yet...
though, i havent really seen or heard of any of my friend that experienced gay bashing and hopefully i will not. But then again, society has been quite open about homosexuals (: which is good..

i found a video that was quite shocking to me especially when i heard that it was from where i live which is in Sydney.
Which i have always thought that it was Adrian's/daniel's school.. and i got mixed up with their school and this one
hahaha

Boys grammar on current affair

Mood: Deprived....

xoxo Mishelle

Long weekend

2009-06-13T17:19:00.012+10:00

HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLOOO EVERY BODYYY (: im having quite a happy day today
SO why not put a nice yummy picture ?? SUREE why not. 8)

Once again, i didnt go school, So Charlie (tiffany's bf) came over. Since i had a guest over, i decided to make brunch for them

Seafood Pancake

yummmm (:
Since tiff wanted to make muffins with charlie we made that afterwards but it came out brunt and so hard that it was literally like ROCKS!
i didnt bother taking any pictures~ hehe
While tiff and char was making muffin (pre mix), i made my own cupcakes cus i had to make up a new flavour for school.. so i decided to make milo cupcake

at least mine came out normal lol

After we made our muffin/cupcakes i decided to start on dinner since it was around 3pm. I had to do the mise en place for the fennel, pumkin and potato Braised Chicken.

And since i thoguht that my parents and siblings were going to come home to eat, i made just enough for the family, but it turned out it was only me and my older sis who had came home later so we could watch a movie with my brother in law and his newphew.

Saturday Morning 130609
Woke up quite late as i was watchin some 'stuff' last night 8) LOLOL and no not straight porn if thats wat your thinking! ew im not that nasty. i was watchin gay porn .. duhh :)
ANYWAYS.......
In the morning i suddenly had cravings for an egg bennet -
poached egg on a bennet which i must say was the BOMBSHITZNIT :D:D:D:D:D hhahah

first off i made the sauce which was Hollandaise sauce..
only the egg yolk is needed to make this sauce

As you can see, the egg was warpped into glasswrap/ clingfilm
and cook in water so the egg wont spread.
there is other methods to it too..

SOOOOO.... what happen with the eggs white you ask?? lol...
well i tried to make meringues
which is only egg white + sugar :S

simple aye? but i put my temp a bit too high..

thats about my day gone..
Also another thing, i have really been writing about homosexual lately, but hopefully the next blog
i'll be writing more about PDA and other things..

heres a snip what the next blog might be (:

TEE HEE

xoxo Mishelle

FUCK, IM SCREWED!!!

2009-06-09T12:03:00.006+10:00

i was suspose to go school today to hand in my assesment for Food tech, but i havent even done it yet..... and i NEVER knew that the teacher herself would call me.... and the past few days i've been having signs of flu coming up and today when i woke up i had coughs and sneezing abit, so i decided not go to school...
fuck im so screwed..

she had rang up and said

Teacher :
Hello, is this michelle?
Me:
yes it is...
Teacher:
This is Ms Brooks. Do you know that the assesment is due today?
Me :
yes i know....
Teacher:
Why arent you at school?
Me:
i'm not feeling well and i have coughs and flu, i went to the doctors and they told me not to go school for a while...
Teacher:
yes.. I've checked your attendance and it says that you've been away for 6 days and 9 days partial.. none which had any doc cert. to verify. And it so happen that when the assesment is due today that your away and you happen to have a doctor's certificate?
Me:
mm....... *on the other side of the line.. STRESSSED OUT wtf do i do?!!?!?*
Teacher:
Where is your sister? why didnt you hand her your assesment to her?
Me:
shes at home......
Teacher:
Well i need the assesment tomorrow, cough or no coughs okay?!
Me:
yes.. sorry miss....
Teacher:
well i'll see you tomorrow then, bye
Me:
ok.. bye .................

*hangs up*

WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh
fucking bitch called me 4 times, twice on my mobile and twice on my home phone.. i scared that she would call my dad bcus he donno about dis situation....
phew..............
now all i need to go is wait for my friend to give me the question sheet today so i can do it all tonight and hand it tomrrow.

And i think by now you know alittle about me,whenever i go school i would attend 2nd and 3rd period and leave~ or i would turn up at recess and go one class and leave, i dont know why , but its a BAD habit of mine.
i live life as it is. i try to enjoy every moment of it while i can. i dont want things like my studies to worry and stress about, so i avoid that. I just want to go tafe and continue onwards from there, do what i like to do and do what im best at.

but for now, i really need to stay focus at school,
if i keep this up, in no time i will definately be kicked out this time
4 more months and im struggling to stay in school

I really need to see the
St George YouthPathways people
and talk to them about this incident that has happened.

xoxo Mishelle

HBD dad? lol

2009-06-08T17:53:00.005+10:00

6.06.09
My daddy's birthday and what did we do u ask? we had dinner at this japanese restaurant at the City; Yutaka.

LOLOL my sushiiiiiii (:

After that, i met up with a couple of my friends in the city...
....
......
.........

Then just went home lol
On SUNDAY 8.06.09
I went met up with Marvin again to go bodyjam session :)
This time it wasnt the usual instructor, it was Marvin's BJ's instuctor hehehe. She reminded me of Marvin at times lol but besides that, she was extremely good too.
I had some extra training after the BJ session...
hahahahaha.... fun fun (:

After Marvin waited for me at Strathfield for my dad to pick me up to go to his 2nd Bday dinner with the WHOLE family. (btw, marvin, u literally saw all my family members now LOLOL)

We went to Punchbowl to eat at a Lebanese restaurant; Jasmine
We ordered everything on the menu! ROFL!!!!! im serious.. there wasnt much,
around 15dishes which was mostly HOMUS. and MORE HOMUS :\ .. there was like 3 or 4 plates of homus but each had different toppings on top eg. mince beef, olive oil,chickpeas.. two plates of vegetables and the rest was like the typical leb food like tabuli,lamb,chicken etc..
overall it was really really good .. and was so cheap cus it ended up costing $130 for 7 people

mm.. that was once nice lamb lol

As you can see in this picture above.. 3 fuckn plates of homus....

There was one dish that was quite unusual... Raw minced beef
infact it tasted quite nice (: if you dont try you wont know.

lol.. can people guess how old he turned? =P
and if you guys are thinking if gave him anything ? yes i did!

A towel ^^

with our names on it hehehe

xoxo Mishelle

shitass day

2009-06-07T01:29:00.008+10:00

what do you do when stressed?

relax
meditate
sleep on it
spazz out
smoke

theres alot of other things out there to do too... today i had shit load of stress on me which made me smoke, which i havent been doing for AGESSS.. I had stop becasue i took aware of the people around me and because of that, i wanted to change for them...
but just today something made me click ...
and i needed one bad, and i did.

so what do you do when your stressed?
xoxo Mishelle

New creations

2009-06-05T23:41:00.007+10:00

inspried by many young chefs
hahahaha
for those who doesnt know what Master Chef is, its a reality tv show.

Site : www.masterchef.com.au

About The Show

Thousands of applications flooded in from across the country. Students, mums, professional sportsmen, solicitors, nurses and cleaners all applied. Young and old, each came prepared with raw talent and enthusiasm to leave their old life behind..

and enter the kitchen with one driving aim:
To become Australia's first ever MasterChef.

With no prior professional cooking experience, these budding foodies have serious goals they want to fulfil. Their desired end results all differ - whether it is running a Michelin star restaurant, opening a small organic café in the hills of Adelaide, creating a catering business in Newcastle or opening a flagship restaurant in their home town utilising local produce, these contestants' dreams are on the path to becoming a reality.

Anyways, to blog about what i made today for my sisters and brother in law.

Honey Mustard Pasta with Chicken
(own invention LOL)
recipe;

boil pasta
can of Honey mustard sauce
Whole Chicken, cut into peices cooked till brown,
+ cut vegs into bitesize

oven; 190degrees covered with foil.
45mins ~ 1hr

leek & egg drop soup

Pear cobblers... for deserts
yes it doesn't look that appealing

tried my best to garnish it
(:

with
creamy & thick passion fruit yogurt

And that was my day,

So how is life treating for everyone?
im guessing everyones busy with their own life.
Life isnt life without happiness/ fun in it isnt it?

xoxo mishelle

PDA

2009-06-05T04:58:00.004+10:00

Dream;

I was in my sisters room, but went outside her room and supernatrual things started to occur and the door wouldnt open to let me to back in my sisters room, so i started to cry. After telling my older sis what had happened, my mum suggested to her to give me a crucifix (i wore it as a bracelet).
change of scene*
We were in some sort/type of race, and Marvin was one of the many leaders we got chosen by, so me, my friend and marvin went on a small boat(mini ones, ususally used for one of two passengers-goes really fast), but for some odd reason i didnt get on the boat, so there i was, swimming in the ocean through unclear/mucky-ish water. Once we stoped on a island, we had a break and i was taking pictures.

--end.
whats the point of searchin them up,
when no ones really gives a shit.
if you wanna know, do it yourself

How has the public view on Gay PDA changed since the early days?

Or should the question be, has it changed at all?

and look here, what i found

xoxo mishelle

Bubbly

2009-06-03T23:44:00.000+10:00

I kept this song for quite a while.. lol
This song is dedicated to Marvin :)

^^

part of the lyrics.

I've been awake for a while now
you've got me feelin like a child now
cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes
and I crinkle my nose
where ever it goes I always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go...

Daily routine of life

2009-05-28T00:02:00.000+10:00

this is how my day starts off for weekdays.

Walk to the bus stop in COLD WEATHER

One of my neighbourhood cat that randomly
comes out every now and then

in front of bus stop

OR

Belfield bus stop :)

Food technology class room

had assesment on presavations for happles. yes dont tell me, i already know i have the fugly handwritting...

Yes unfortunately my life isnt as exciting as you thought and i go to an all girls school.. which sucks because i cant see any gay action at school, except for some lesbian action.. but the girls that are open are just plain scary nasty, they're ether dyke or emo =\

Well thats all for now
i'll leave a nice good picture for my viewers ^^

yum or not?
maybe its not your type of guys hehehehehehe.

Question for my viewers
What type of guys do you like;
Body : lanky, normal,fit,built, tank, bulky
Hair : short, long, bold (wavey or styled)
Skin colour : Fair skin, dark skinned, white, black?

(:

mood: tired from making 110 jung

x

Do people choose their sexuality

2009-05-26T16:22:00.000+10:00

Born gay or choose to be gay?

This ALLL happen while i was surfing on youtube, i stumbled on a video. It got me quite intrigued, It was a question to the public asking them

'Do you think people are born gay or choose to be gay?'

and alot of peple said i think they were born gay, but SOME think different, they said that they CHOOSE to be gay.

I know that MOST of my viewers are mostly gay/bi.. and i KNOW that all you gays out there will say ' i was born gay' lol..
lol but there is just some weird people who think that being gay is a choice.
When topics like this comes up, i would usually debate with them until i win or either they get fed up of me talking about the topic. and my favourite comeback is;

'Do you choose to be straight?'

... then they all get stunned....
HAHAHHA thats right dikheadssss
i fucked you hard ;)

and it SO happened to be in the video i watched too hehehe

But for bisexuals, its a different story:)
but what i think is ;

There are gorgeous guys and girls in this world.
Why limit urself to just one gender.

True or what?!? :D

x

RAGE to blithe

2009-05-24T20:18:00.000+10:00

ARGH, i spent over 2 hours on my blog, finding and editing my layout and trying to put up the nuffnang ad.. and it STILLL DOESNT FUCKING WORK.. im trying to do a good deed here by advertising. BUT THIS STUPID layout shit doesnt let me or either im so dumb that i dont know how to paste it in the right place. fucking 2 hours doing just THAT.
!@#$%^&*()

(that was around 2pm when i wrote that, its currently 7:09pm)

Saturday 230509

Lets talk about last night? Me and my sis went to City to meet up with my friends to hang out for a while.. but things didnt turn out too well.. But before that, we went to French Riviera Ice cream (I RECOMMEND YOU TO GO THERE!!!).

But things happened and it got complicated bcus i wanted to stay in the city for a bit longer so i could meet up with marvin for a bit, cus hes such a KID and wanted to take CAPITOLS (sticker foto). So im like alright then... We met up and u need 1dollar coins to put in the machine and i was about to chip in 5buks to pay as well but marvin didnt let me........ =_= and he gave me my money back..... lol so he paid it instead LOL ^^

After taking one lot of pictures, he wanted to take ANOTHER one .. hahahaha and this time i was really gonna pay but HE PAYED AGAIN.. =______= so we took another round LOL ^^

thats right, we think were some gangstaa shiet (:
LOLOLOLOLOL
After awhile he had to go meet his other friends... and i went back home lol

Sunday 240509

Around 2pm, i see someone msging me on msn, and guess who it was? Marvin! lol he wanted me to go to his bodyjam class session today at 4:30. After some time of hesitating whether to go or not, i finally made up my mind. Why not? since i wasnt doing anything today. Around 3:40pm i went to catch the train at strathfield to parramatta, when i got outside.. Marvin was waitin for me (: we were a bit late so he ran up the stairs and i was like, 'i dont run' LOLOL so we just kinda powerwalked to the fitness first.

ohhhhh and the bodyjam was pretty fun, i didnt know what to expect! but overall it was fun, even though i didnt know the moves, but i eventually got the hang of it and everytime, marvin was checking if i was doing okay ^^ and oh BOY he was LOUD and activeee hahaha!! i'll probably be going next sunday again if i dont have anything on.

After the whole session finished i was planing to back to strathfield. But before that, Marvin wanna buy some protein drink + a bottle of water, and again he paid for it. =_______________= He even gave me a risk band cus he had a spare rofl (:

I was planning to go back strathfield but he insisted taking me to strathfield and waited till my sis picke me up. haha how nice of him..

and now im sitting here webcamming with this faggot named tiinky (school friend)
haha

mood: buoyant

x

Letting go part 1

2009-05-22T01:58:00.000+10:00

people say

''why are you still holding on to him? He's gay.''

well, if you have fallen for someone, you cant help who your attracted to.. whether its a girl or guy, what counts is in the inside. For quite a while now, i've been having feelings for my close gay friend called Thinh. I treat him as a brother and he treats me as a sister, we would share things to each other he would always be there for me and support me through times. After a months long of getting to know him our webcam sessions became daily, then i started to develop a somewhat jealousy feeling around him. Like; whenever he'll talk about a guy or when he rambles on about this guy. The jealousy aroused and i felt that it was a bit unusual for me to even be feeling like this, then it hit me... i had feelings for him, when i realised that, i wanted it to stop immediately or make it go away but it was too late, my feelings for him was stronger than i expected it to be...

So letting it as it is, my feelings for him became stronger as time went by. I really did want this to stop because i know the result of this. It will lead me to know where because hes gay. It was selfish of me to think that we could actually have something together.

But we all know what the result was.............

i'll stop here and update the next part of this.
Cause i need to be in bed right now its nearly 2am and i have to wake up for school in approximately 5 hours time. so im pretty sure i'll be having my infamous panda eyes again.

i wish it could be that cute when i have my panda eyes =_=

Another note ;

-

Marvin called me and i was hesitating to pick up, yes.. im shy :) but somehow i manage to pick up his phone call.
and let me tell you, what a HAPPY CHEERFUL guy he is ^^ well he sounded like one lol. We talked about this issue that i came upon which i would like to be remained private. I guess you can say, he helped me in a way (:
and no im not going to post up every phone call i get. Its just that, i don't really have people calling me and making time to admonish me.
thanks brother, marvz

He is a man that's indescribable =]

Wake up call

2009-05-20T20:38:00.000+10:00

Familiar anyone?? (hint: fair day)

What is Life?

Life is like an onion: You peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep.
Life is the only real counselor; wisdom unfiltered through personal experience does not become a part of the moral tissue.

For me, personally i think that life is just full of obstables. The more obstacles and experience you make, the better. By ignorance we mistake, and by mistakes we learn.

Everyone goes through a difficult moment throughout their life, whether some take it harder than others or simply, everyone has one hard moment in life., but i guess its just a way of snapping you back into reality; a wake up call i guess you can say.

mood: perplexed;unreasonable

ps. lol,
no thanks to Jayse.K
(:

x

Slothful.

2009-05-18T18:14:00.000+10:00

Been lazy to blog, not only cus i'm lazy, but also i've been busy taking care of my father as he is still recovering from his sickness. So'll blog two days worth in this blog (:

16.05.09 saturday

Saturday morning woke up late... dun remember what happen liao. But cooked dinner & bought chicken for dinner bcus daddy is still recovering.

hahaha.. not much hor?
mui mui (little girl/sis) still small ma :P

27.05.09 Sunday

Also didn't do much today, felt like being malaysian lol.
It is a malaysian thing to do - we will cook har bang (prawn crackers) and then store in a metal tin box . (reminds me of the past....)

TODAY
I NEED TO GET MY L's (car licence)!!!!
i went to do the test last year, beginning of december but failed..
I'm going to study for the test that i'll be doing this saturday or next week.
wish me luck guys ^^

i will end my blog now.......
busy with my study ...... (although i keep skipping or going late to school)
aiyah.. how to get rid of this laziness.. espeacially in year 12 ):

mood: eyes/face are burning up =\

x

What a nice day to troll.

2009-05-15T21:57:00.000+10:00

this particular person said to me;

" you cannot control the situation ...
but you can control how you react to it
and it will be your reaction that will dictate the outcome "

and that was marvin (:

i know what that means, and thats all it matters. ^^

15.05.09 friday night
Went out to the city with my sister and couple of my friends, when we got to the city, less than 20mins, anna dogged me for her bf.....which i think was a bit selfish i reckon? hmm but i guess its her first love and yeh...

but besides that, after she left me tiff and tanya walked around in the city, china town night market. For those people who doesnt live in sydney. They have only have night market on Friday nights, unlike malaysia... from experience, i know theres 'basar malam' (night market) every 2-3 days in a week depending where you live. LOLs

So for me, when i see night market, it reminds me off malaysia's lifestyle. After tanya leaving, i was planning to go to 85degrees and buy a cake and go home (actually wanted to meet up with this person but i didnt have his number.. =_=), but when i was walking through the night market, i happenly bumped into my older sister's friend. So rather than going straight home, we might as well hang around with them cus emily(older sis) was going city and meet up with them in an hour or so.

As we were going up to market city out from china town, i spotted a business man (aussie) walking across the street.... the thing is, he was holding another man's (indian) hand. did you guys see what i wrote???.. he WAS HOLDING HIS HAND!!!=D im guessing they were around 25+ aged man, but stillllllll that was just so cute! HOW OFTEN, do you see a gay couple wearing business suit-ish walking through china town around 6pm HOLDING HANDS?!!! they just made my day. :D hehehehe... wait theres MORE o_o when we were going upstairs to the second level in market city, i spotted two asian fobby looking guys aged around 20ish, holding hands!!!!!!!!!

YAY! Imagine how my mood would've been when i saw that HUH!!? yes... you guessed it right.. i was over the moon (:

After what it seemed like an hour, my sister finally arrived; since she recently got a job, she decided to shout us all... we literally walked around the WHOLE CITY finding a bloody restaruant to eat at but it was either the queue was too long, too expensive and we we wanted to find a new place to eat at to try. So we ended up going to this thai place called ... i forgot, but it was something like crocodile... it was in front of the bust stop.

Green curry

BBQ chicken

Pad Thai

Anyways, my stupid sister forgot to bring her card or ANY money with her at all, but luckily i had some cash in me. So instead of her shouting, i had shouted $50 worth of food. (thai food isnt cheap i'll tell ya =_= ) but i guess its OK... cus i was in a happy mood after seeing two gay couples^^ After that, my sister was fully hugging me while we went to CAPITOLs cus my sister's friend wanted to play those game machine......

lol for a 22 year old girl, she still has a kid's mind... even i dont play those games cus i think its so childish =='

japanese game machine @ capitol

She didnt end up winning anything so she decided to buy some ice cream just downstairs. When i was walking around entertainment centre. i recived a sms msg from someone and it says
'Ayy Mishy, Just fot ur message now. It's Marvin btw. Whats up?'
i was happy that he replied but he replied too late as i was about to head off back home. so i didnt ended up meeting him.

ps. Today, year 12's got their jersey, and this is what mine looks like (:

it finally hit me, im really in year 12.. no more joking around fooling around now. This is serious, this is my LAST year in high school. hehe

And to end off this blog ...
i'll leave a quote what marvin wrote to me the other day,

''absence makes the heart grow fonder ''

I love it <3 and he knows who im refering to (:

mood: content

(:

2009-05-14T17:20:00.000+10:00

'' MY DADDY is sick. ''

thats what i heard from tiffany (my twin) when she arrived late to school. She told me that he didnt even go work today, which is really rare for my dad to do, cus even tho if he was sick he'll still go unless its extrem. So... deciding that it was my duty as a gwai lui (good girl) to take care of him. i decided to cook him juk (porridge) when i got home from school.

messy? haha (fish,prawn,scallop)

Im guessing you guys want to know what i've putten inside there?
well this little master chef has its secret recipe :P
LOLSs................

tada! ^^ itatakimasu~ (FUKKK im so ASIAN rofl)

tbcc..

Despondent

2009-05-10T22:57:00.000+10:00

I've just finished season 1 of Merlin. This show is based on the Arthurian legends of the mythical wizard Merlin and his relationship with Prince Arthur. It is Merlin's destiny to protect Arthur, no matter what happens to Merlin - that's what makes me intrigued about this particular show... In one of the episodes, Merlin falls into this curse that makes him fall deeply sick and the only cure to save him is a flower, deep in the caves, where Arthur gets into danger and ends up risking his life, in order to help save his servant's life - Merlin.

After watching that episode, LOTSSSSSSSS of things was going through my head :D i imagine more than just servant and prince.... it seems to be some gay chemistry happen'n there =D =D i really hope that SOMEHOW Prince Arthur & merlin gets together XD

Besides that, I've been so lonely, emotionally and physically.. but i guess i don't really have the time to think too much about that because I've got too much other things to worry about, like

studies
assignments
exams
family

I dont really know what i want to do, i feel like just dropping out of school and go to TAFE, but i reckon its useless to do that all now as im about to finish high school in 5 months cus my HSC exams are around October. But im so sick of this, of everything, i feel like giving up, i dont see any further to continuing when theres no happiness in my life currently.

mood :
melancholy

Food craving:

nasi lemak
T.T

OH Wat THE f?

2009-05-07T23:32:00.000+10:00

mood: confuzzled

For the first time, i actually wanted to go to Sydney's STATE LIBRARY to do my studies there because i have NOT been doing anything at home besides going on the comp. to read blogs or to either chat LOLSs. I find it extremly hard to concentrate at home especially when you have a computer right next to you..

and at the end, i didnt end up going state library.... the reason why?
Anna(bestie) came along with me, so instead we bought hungry jacks at pitt st and went to hyde park to eat and study there while we wait for her bf to finish school. that bitch didnt let me do any study, cus we ended up gossiping and talking....... remind not to study while a friend is there HAHAHAHAs... but i did ended up getting some work done

i was so 'free' that we could even take pics =='

yes.. wat a happy chappy (WTF WAS THAT?!? ) ... lololololol
after some time later, they came and we chatted and left around 5pm.

*and while i was a hyde park (sydney most famous gay park) i was CONSTANTLY scanning for some hot leng jai gay guys with my TRUSTY gay RADAR ;D .... sadly & disapointed, i only spotted one and the rest was OKAY looking but didnt see much though =[

Since i didnt get any studying or notes done, i went up to the study section today to do the remaindings of my work in the library when i had my free period.

it was extremly empty....

and instead, of actually doing my work...... i took luvos! :D

*these pictures may scar you for life..... im ugly =[

i don't have any make up on..... i was lazy today to put on >_>

AFTER A LONG LONG LONG day at school, i got home around 3 and i saw my sister's dog ^^ so we took it out for a walk. Theres a small local park located near my house, around 15~20mins walk. I love to play on this thing there.. i didnt take a picture but its not some odinary kidish slide shit thing to play with its hektic (:

ANYWAYS, soon later it got dark and left. GOSH, i reallllllly HATE DAY LIGHT SAVING!! Then my sister tells me something that happen to her when she was taking the dog for a walk around the birrong neighbourhood.

sis - hey i'll tell you something that happen when i was taking the dog for a walk?

me & tiff - NOOOOOOOOOOOO *covers our ears* =[

sis - mm hai ho scary jeh (: (not that scary!) i'll just tell you guys

me - jei jei, mo hak gnor dey ar... T_T (sis, dont scare us.. )

sis -
when i was at birrong taking lexy for a walk, i came near a coner, and i see this women. Because of daylight saving, the sky was pretty dark by then, and i couldnt see her clearly but all i know that she was in red, and was a middle aged aussie women. then the dog started barking at her MADLY, and i kept pulling its leash.. while we walked past her, i told her
''sorry i dont know why my dog kept barking ^^' she DIDNT EVEN SAY ANTHING BACK TO ME, so i thought... that was weird.... so i just continued walking, and THE NEXT THING YOU KNOW , I SEE THE EXACT SAME PERSON AT THE NEXT CONER! I FUCKING FREAKED OUT AND SAID, LETS GO LEXY..... and walked back home.

me & tiff - OH WAT THE FUCK!? ARE U JOKING OMG OMG OMG?!

sis- no im not, when i got home, i started crying hahaha...

and after she said that, i got so paranoid cus when we were walking back home, it was already pitch black, thank the lord that today was a FULL MOON so it wasnt as dark ><

anyone got simliar experiences like this??
lol

PDA?

2009-05-06T21:56:00.000+10:00

Dream;

I was in my sisters room and supernatrual things started to happen and the door wouldnt open to let me to back in my sisters room, so i started to cry. After telling my older sis what happened, my mum suggested to her to give me a crucifix (i wore it as a bracelet).
change of scene*
We were in some sort/type of race, and Marvin was one of the many leaders we got chosen by, so me, my friend and marvin went on a small boat(mini ones, ususally used for one of two passengers-goes really fast), but for some odd reason i didnt get on the boat, so there i was, swimming in the ocean through unclear/mucky-ish water. Once we stoped on a island, we had a break and i was taking pictures.

--end.
whats the point of searchin them up,
when no ones really gives a shit.
if you wanna know, do it yourself

How has the public view on Gay PDA changed since the early days?

Or should the question be, has it changed at all?

and look here, what i found

paranoia

2009-05-04T00:30:00.000+10:00

I've been thinking hard what willy has said to me on my previous blog, about writing my blogs in full words instead lol. and i've decided..

tht i cnt be fked writing liek dat HAHAHAHAHA

nahhhhh.. im just joking ROFLSs. I'll try to write more.... umm less abbreviated words. I'm struggling, but still willing to do it ^^

People ask me, what do you want?
theres no answer to that question, the word want is not needed in your life, its more of an unnecessary thing part of your life.

from what i've searched;
When you WANT something, you wish you can have it, but you can live without it.
When you NEED something, you HAVE to have it, it's essential and you can't live without it.

you know why i said that? alot of people been saying that they want this and that.. but have you really thought about it.
isn't right now, the things you have enough for them?
have they actually thought about the other people who actually needs it?
hmm.. what do you guys reckon? i know some things you buy to make yourself happy in life, and i understand. ANOTHER thing i hate is when people waste food. eg. lets say i know this person.. she takes escessively of food on the plate, then chucks half of them away.....it annoys me, not only cus she wasted the food supply that we have to buy but also that she does this everytime. its just... greedy of her to do that.. do you know anyone that does this?? >< !@#$%^

Have you ever felt that you are needed to be up to someones expectations cause you feel that you're not good enough for them?

short blog for now, been quite busy, as expected, i knew i would lose interest in blogging.. maybe cus there isn't anything interesting happening in my life. just yet

one last time

2009-05-03T01:29:00.000+10:00

i dont usually post song lyrics, but today i suddenly felt like it and im feeling quite down..

i just cant make you love me
And it burns my heart
That you don't feel the flame
No i just cant make you love me
so, hold me like you mean it
And ill pretend to feel it one last time

Don't say a word
Baby please don't speak
Just hold me close and let me make-believe

I don't wanna hurt

Till the morning break

Just pretend it's not the end
and spend this one last time with me

Video Cam

2009-05-02T20:52:00.000+10:00

long long time liao havnt blogs (:
and i DOUBT anyone missed me LOLSs.. being capped is shit, could barely go on anything =\

RIGHT NOW IM video cam WITH THINH <3...
(hes my gay bestie, therefore im his faghag)

aww how much i miss him sooo much (: i have just finished camming with him, i dont want him to go, cus i just miss him too much and him leaving makes me sad... hmm =[

let me tell you guys a little about my bro^^
(NOT BIOLOGICALLY RELATED)
hes my soulmate, he understands me, same interest as me.. ders nothing thts different btwn us, he tells me everything and i do the same to him too.
Hes the happiness him my life ^^
i love this guy heaps man!!!! <3

ANYWAYS enough about him, yesterday night i went to the city with a couple of my outside school friends to eat. Scanning for some eye candy and also USING MY GADAR, sadly nearly all of them tht was hawt or cute was gay.. i hvnt seen any straight cute good looking guys, they've turned gay LOLSs.. and im not joking!!! O_O you guys should come sydney if you dont believe me^^ LOL. and if you guys wondering, no their not those fambloyant ones (well not so much lah).. mostly those straight looking guys but with NICE metro-ish style, some had fobby style and some were just wearing casual..

there was heaps of variety
-Asians (thai, hk,chinese),, many more which i dont know but THEY WERE SOO DAMNN HAWT
-Aussies
-european
XD hehehehe

i rmber a story my first ever gay friend told me bouts him, while in high school... he told me bout this boyfriend he had back then in high school and he would make out with him in the school toilets, and do 'stuff' with him too. Im surprised they never got caught by the teacher ROFLS.

i keep dreaming tht i wud be somethin like this.. XD

i rkn my blog is so shit, no one reads it
and im assuming the reasons are either
1. no gay guys
2.not a gay blogger
3.not gay enough for viewers

ROFLS^^

also, i've been reading lots of peoples blog lately, esp theres this one particular blog
he talks about his neigbour and
he thinks hes good lookin,
so he spys on him wen hes outside
his hse or gettn out of the car
LOL i rkn thts so cute, reminds me
of those young teens

just makn sure you guys are still payn attention to my blog
(: LOL

LOLSs.. i know i look weird in the pic and maybe he does too but ^^
i wanna share you guys to the ppl who reads my blog,
this is my soulmate, not my partner.
Soul mate and partner is differnt.. i think?

wat you guys think bout my bro?

my lifes not gay enough, i hope something gay will pop in my life soon.

i'll just end my blog here, cus ders nuttn to write anymore.
(:

hahahahhahahaha.........

same interest

2009-04-28T16:57:00.000+10:00

People ask me, why do you like gays? ??
i rly dun hv an answer to that.... i just like dem LOLSS (:

it seems tht EVERYTHING AROUND ME IS GAY GAY GAY GAY
if nt gay, then bye bye (: and i thnk sometimes therse just this thing
that gays attract me too...
eg. liek if i watch tv COINCIDENALLY a gay episode or scene will come up
or a gay ad, gay movie, SOMETHING to do with gay lah! LOLSs

I din blog ystrday cus der wasn’t anything happening but today, I went strathfield with my sis to meet her gay friend cus he wanted to get a hair cut and I needed to go der to see my dentist. So I splited up and wented my way and they went their way. After dentist I met up wid dem agens and we went to FM studio to get his hair cut.. he looked so good after gettn one LOLSs… later we walked arnd stra and dens we were just gossiping bouts gays and other random shiet LOLS. We parted and caught the bus home.

Wen I gt home, my sis came bak wid the dog (: it seems like it grows bigger and bigger everyday, so we took de dog for a walk. Then gots home n I video cam (VC) wif vince cus I wanted to show him my dog :P ROFLS… we chatted for a while ;) and MARVZ wanted to VC wid him so I let him off den after 10mins later, he continued VC wid me…………. Until it DCed liao :\
I WAS CAPPED *cries* ): so I cudnt vc wid him anymores lolss stupid net !!!!

BY THE WAYYY…..
SCHOOL IS STARTING TMRW!!! :(
nOoOooOOooooooooooo!! I dun wunna go bks 2 skool..
I hate it, no more stayn up late watchn gay porn anymore
But at the same time I kind wunna go bk skl cus I just wunna see my friends.. but I thnk after a week, I doubt I wud wunna see them anymore LOL. Its only the first week.. after that I got a feeling I will get sick of it hahahahaha… I wish I went to a co-ed school cus then I might see two guys kissn ;D

sadly no, i wish it was like that in a co-ed school.. LOLSs cus i'll be drooling :D

another thing ;) today wen i was at stra, i saw so many young boys!!
but i only spotted 1-2 tht is gay =[ and i saw a guy wearn this
skinny legs typed schoool pants..
wish i coud show yu guys, hehehe buh,
DAAYMMMMM SON, he looked HAWT in dem
XD ROFLS

im gunna go now cus my net is capped :\
so i'll post another blog later during the week ~
bye for now

x <3

Adrian & Jo's Engagment party/bbq

2009-04-26T22:07:00.000+10:00

(=

i just got home... so damn tired at de moment lol,
im really not bothered typing today.... im too lazii so i'll just post some pictures up

everyone buzy eatn lol

the cake was pretty small....

Adrian & Jo cuttn the cake

After standing in the cold for 5 hours cus we were eattn and chattn, i went to brother in law's house to play with the dog. his nieces and newphew was there
their so cuteeeeeeee ^^
she keeps calling me emily (older sis)
im like my names michelle..... =.=
shes like OH (so cute wen she does that)
then shes liek chelle~ its so cute!! ^^

a pic wid my bro in law's niece (hannah)
i look so fugly

tada..Lexy
it kept scratching my stocking :(

wen i was playn wid the dog.. i got a fone call from 'vince'
im liek.. huh? *picks up

V - hello?
me - hello?....

i rly dun rmber wat he said.. hahahah.... i thnk something liek go bankstown rsl club to eat dinner with our friends. so eventually i agreed and met them there.
anna's mum paid all of us bcus it was a buffet....
(THANKS ANNA's MUMMY ^^)
we just ate and talk..

it was so fun today cus .... (:
someone kept checkn guys out and i could tell...
hahaha he was giving me eye signals to look at various guys
i always wanted someone to do that with me LOL
it was FUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN ^^

daniel & adrian (helen took it)

o yehh..i was scanning for gay guys
so i got up to 'get food'
i saw a cute guy sittin down with his family and eating
wen he looked up at me... using my radar..... i could tell hes gay
i dont know wether if it was his actions or juts his looks...
but he was so damn cute hahaha..

things i love bouts gay

looking at two guys together melts me
watchin gay porn, listening to them MOAN bcus their gettn fked is HAWT
i have a interest in listening to their 'comming out'
loves to listen to their experiences :)
the fact that i have a guy friend and that we both cn check guys out lo

i dun noe wat else to rly write , i just have a interest in it...
i think its extremly cute ^^

heres a quote ..

''A dose of gay everyday, its my medication that keeps me sane''

x

Anzac Day

2009-04-26T03:32:00.000+10:00

Today was a day to remember the soilders who fought for our country Australia.
who lost their lives in the Galipoli war..................
BLEHHHH.
does it look like i care ?! lol jOknnn lah..
to me anzac day aint tht important to me i dun no y
haha...

Today i went shoppn wid my DADDY (: i love him xP
cus tmrw is my cuzin engagment party and we gota buy a presnt for dem.. first we went to burwood plaza to do gocery shoppn

buyin food for tonites DA BIN LO(hot pot)

after that, we went off to Burwood westfield....

drive drive~~ driving into parkin lot

once we gt der, we walked arnd to look for silverwares...plates....
it got very sienz (boring) bcus it was onli me and my daddy walkn like losties lol.. so my daddy wntd to buy a drink from Gloria jeans..

he ordered mocha thing and i ordered Cafe Latte :D

i think this picture is very beautilful.. dnt yu guys thnk so??

i feel so proud takn that pic by myself, (bkground is burwood wesfield)
when i was waitn for my cafe latte.............. i was scannin for some leng jai..
i saw a bunch of them walkn up from the esculator.. HOHOHOHO..
but dey were all krns.. some were OKEY lookn

mayb after a LONG TIME WALKN around lookn for the right present, my daddy gt a fone call n left me by myself T^T ..... so i went david jones to look at fragrances and makeup..... i saw gucci perfume for guys and gals~ smelt pretti nice.. then nxt to it was burberry , once i smelt it.. OMG I WANTD TO AOW (vomit) stink so bad........... =_=
so i moved on and saw harajuku perfume.. there was liek 5 diffrnt types i thnk??.. i sprayed all of them into those small cards and they smelt so nice :D
after that my daddy called me to go bk outside to continue searchin the present.. suddenly i walked pass this donut store (forgot the name liao =.= )
i saw two aussie guys, pretty good looking, well groomedm nice styles, sitting together having a cup of coffee..using my
gay radar.... im pretty sure their gay cus my radar was leaning on the gay side lol.. :)
yes, guys and girls. i HAVE a gay radar!!!!!!

so...... after we FINALLYYY bought those damn stupid plate sets! we had to leave cus the parkn is free if we stay for 3 hrs.. (yeh.. i noe im cheap) so we drove to ashfield to buy more items for the dai bin lo

more driving.. some reason dis pic remindme of china
MUNIS THE BRIGHT BLUE SKY...... HAHAHAHA

after ashfield, we went ALLLL THE WAY BACK TO BURWOOD again got der at 5pm.. waited till 6 bloody pm.to pik up some1 up off from work ... then around 6pm.. we finally were going home

looks so empty....
(was closing at 5pm cus of anzac day)

FINALLY~~~ at home, we unpack the stuff and prepared the hot pot ingridents.. today was a cold night.. so it was best day for hot pot hehe

one side was chicken broth, the other side was tom yum.. it was the bomb shitnizt! :D lmao.

After dinner, my daddy rang me on my mob to tell me to come downstairs to help me make curry puff...WTF.. lazy much??!! lolso ofcorse, being a gwai lui (good girl) ... i help him la .. cus my step mum and dad is shit at folding the crust.. so i had to fold all the crust =_=

in the oven cookin~~~

watcha thnk bouts my currypuffs?

Right now its.... 3:30am!! tmrw i got an engagment party/lunch thing to go to.. i hv to be der at 12pm.... i need to fan gau(sleep) ar.. if not i'll get panda eyes or it'll be huk sai la (black)..
huu~~.... T_T

haha just now i was talkn to miguel ...... we shared alot of stuff (;
but i thnk it was mostly me doing the talkn ayeeeee, miguel? (:

ooo.. oso.. i found out new info. on gays..
how cum i never knew that before a guy cums while
he is having sex with a guy partner that
the last thrust is the hardest?.......... :|
therefore it makes the bottom tired....
i wonder how the ppl who cn hv sex 2-3times in a night, handle it o_o

comment please.
any thing else that i dunno abts gay might fascinate me?
and OH trust me. i know alot of things abt gays
i think maybe nxt blog, i'll write it out..
untill next time yall (: peace out nigga G!!.....
lolol im so hyped at this time and its 3:30am

Easter Break

2009-04-24T23:18:00.000+10:00

hahahaa, why not post some pics up during my easter break?
went to Shibi's(anna's tutoring friend) hse at Bondi

yes, we are very ASIAN
hahaha...

he had a very expensive majong table T_T
automatic one too. so i recorded it so you guys can see
how awsome this shit is (:

that was only the start of the holiday..... after that i went to work at the easter show, but being as my sister (i am a twin ^o^ ) so i pretended to be her bcus shes so lan(lazy) to wrk. see wat a gwai(obidient/nice) sister i am?!

pic taken during our break

more pic @ work after a long day so we decided to
take some pictures har har har..

After working, we decided to go easter show just as an outing, so AGAIN.... going back to work -_____- but free entry cus i got pass.... hehe

animal nursery, feeding the goats.. one scared the hell out of me!
u can see it from my expression LOL

Night time at the rides section

i should tell you guys something.... im extremly afaird of rides
i never go on anything.. the only ones im willing to go on is

merry go round

ferris wheels

LOL....... last time i went on was swinging chairs.. (if u dunno, its the one where u sit on the chair and its like a swing times 30 chairs..... IM SO BAD AT EXPLAINING lol T_T )... i was going to piss myself!!! @_@
but i dun know why leh, i was so brave that day.. i went on this ride
that has water in it oso.. i wanted to shit cus i was bloody scared...
me and my friends was sup sai jor (wet) cus it splashed on us lol
fun experience wor.. but NEVER will try agian @_@ LOLZ

ending the day.. at station wif anna waitin 2 go
City to meet up wid others

Basically that was practically my easter break... school starts next week on wednesday.. i rly dun wan to go school cus me lazii~~ all i do now is sek(eat) and fan gao (sleep) LOLOL ,, becomming fatt fatt liao..
aiyo.. im so addicted to blogging now.. after reading Jacky's blog..
hes life seem so interesting compared to mine lol

i think nxt post will be pics of the bloggers i like!
i wan 2 post their pics up now but din ask their permission yett. just wait lahh (=

Heres a picture to end this blog off.
something that might amuse you

Dont you hate it when this happens? LOL

Inspiration

2009-04-24T16:09:00.000+10:00

haiizzz got headache ... ) =

i think blogging is one of my fav thing to do now, lately i've been reading blogs such as Robb , Willy, Luna Maze and more.. it has inspired me to blog more, which i most likely will for now.. but theres a high possibility that it'll fade off within a week lol.

Right now im going to take blogging a bit more serious and actually post some pictures up while im blogging as it'll attract people attention whilst reading my blog :)

Also ive been watching this drama called 'Boys over flowers' it was orginially from a japanese manga, theres currently 3 types of verison of the drama, first one was a chinese one, called meteor garden which i've watched when i was in year 5 if i remember? lol. The second one is Hana Yori Dango, which was a big hit and made alot of teens watch it and the 3rd one is Boys over flower (korean ver.)

If you wanna watch it and wondering which one to watch? well for me i think the BOF is the best one, although i think the story line went a bit tai fai lah (too fast) and kinda wished it lasted a bit longer but besides that, the characters were pretty good looking and has a good soundtrack :) lol but if you want the story line to be detailed, maybe you should watch hana yori dango ..

i'm obsessed with BOF's ost, as im listening to their ost right now T~T and also everynight ever since i finished the drama, tmrw im going to put it in my iriver to listen when i go out or on the for ceh(train) by myself~
kekeke ^^

i love their eyes <3

its currently 1:35am, i've been sleeping around 2:30am + which is unhealthy for my health and have been waking up at 10am+ . im gettin use to the habbit which will be extremly hard for me when i get back to school - that starts next wednesday. ><
suddenly i got a sms from my sai lo(little bro) :)
so happpy^^ cus i hvnt got sms from him in ages and
yu noe how much i miss him ~ haha

but after reading the sms, i started to cry T.T cus i miss him ar

cute isnt it? XD

now~~ on my own comp , so boring....

i sometimes wonder, why am i so into homosexual lifestyle?
i really dont know how to answer that myself....
any suggestion ? comment :)

Wether to forget or not

2009-04-23T00:29:00.000+10:00

mood: content and abit of pityfulness

its 12:30am. i havent updated for ages.. i dont see a point to it
as no one even reads it. lots of things been gng thru my head
dis holiday.. i tot i could spend time wid thinh and talk 2 him. but i ws wrong..
total opposite for me! either i was busy with easter show or he'll be with his bf or at his boyfriends house.. and even when we talk.
its only for a while until his bf calls, i dont wanna hold any grudges agaisnt him but.. he really gets in my head sometimes... okey...
dis is wat happen with thinh..... his comp is stuffed up and
nt unable to go on, so i cannot even contact at him at all.
wen i sms him.. he replies back sometimes with short msgs..
i would say 'i miss you' but i never get an answer back.. i really miss him..

on tues i msgd him asking him how his second day of school
he said he'll be at chichi's house soon and he'll talk to me there... so i waited
he went on i was happy to actually get to talk to him again. it just made my day..
then after seeing his bf on webcam with him.. chichi trying to kiss thinhs cheeks .........
the same time i think its really cute when their together but it oso makes me extremly jealous and it hurts so much inside..
but i just put on a smile and act like nothing happen.. after that we talked for like an hour or so? im not sure..

suddenly,
chichi says somethign to thinh.

thinh - chichi wants me. he wants to hug me cos he said he havnt hugged me in a while and wants me to go on the bed with him

well obviously i cannt say anything can i?
so i just said okay then go ahead.
so i let him go off and he went off webcam..
but when i think about it..
he has thinh every day for a week.. i rarely even talk to him anymore because of chichi..
AND he cant even spend at least 2 hours or more tlakn to me gettn disturbed by chichi saying he wants thinh..
why he takn thinh away from MY time talkin to him....
i dont get it......

i really just want to forget him.. but i love him very much..

stupid huh.. falling for gay guys...
lets just hope this is the last time i ever do fall for a gay guy..

okey lets forget that now lah.. lately, been going easter show
and outings. :) with daniel and anna's tutoring friends.
AND guess wat. one of their friends was apparently vince.
when it was daniel and naomi's bday and i heard vince was going
i was excited that he going cus i finall get 2 actually see him and
talk to him ^^ i dun noe y but i get happy lols

i saw him ~~ i was happy. later we went K
but he had to go some other K and i was liek noooooooo :[
lol and obviously i cudnt dog anna and esp the bday ppl..
so i stayed in their K but it was alrite.. it was pretty fun
ahah ^^

lolme and tiff were the ones that werent posing

WHOPSSSSS !!!

ahh. o wells.. :)

on monday i went easter show with my grp.. for the 3rd time..
i went on those scary rides.. just for the fun of it..
coz i neveerrrrr everrrr go on rides.
>< LOL but it was a funnnn expereince haha
after that me and anna left to go city to meet up with
helen,daniel,adrian,micheal and vince
lol again. i dun noe y i was happy to see vincee.
too bad he couldnt stay out later. =[
but besides that ... we went to eat jap food
and went to darling habour to talk..
it got late
left around 10:30..

now to talk about today
y reason the whole blog was ment for~~~
.. nearly the whole day ive been talkn to vince just abt his life
so glad he told me everything.. i feel happy when someone tells me abt their life. it makes me feel a that they trust me. and right now i need it .. i need a replacement for thinhs absence.. at least hes making me snap out of my depression..
lol i feel like giving vince a big hug LOLLLLL :)
^_^

x

Because im so foolish..

2009-04-13T22:15:00.000+10:00

내 머리는 너무나 나빠서 너 하나밖에 난 모르고
다른 사람을 보고 있는 넌 이런 내 마음도 모르겠지 음~

너의 하루에 나란 없겠지 또 추억조차 없겠지만
너만 바라만 보고 있는 난 자꾸 눈물이 흐르고 있어

너의 뒷모습을 보는것도 난 행복이야
아직 나의 마음을 몰라도 끝내 스치듯이 가도 워~

니가 너무 보고싶은 날엔 너무 견디기 힘든 날에는
너를 사랑한다 입가에 맴돌아
혼자 다시 또 Crying for you
혼자 다시 또 Missing for you
Baby I love you I`m waiting for you

너의 하루에 난 없겠지 또 기억조차 없겠지만
너만 바라만 보고 있는 난 혼자 추억을 만들고 있어

내겐 사랑이란 아름다운 상처같아
너의 예쁜 미소를 보아도 함께 난 웃지도 못해 워~

니가 너무 생각나는 날엔 가슴 시리고 슬픈 날에는
니가 보고싶다 입가에 맴돌아
혼자 다시 또 Crying for you
혼자 다시 또 Missing for you
Baby I love you I`m waiting for you

Bye bye never say good bye
이렇게 잡지 못하지만
I need you 아무 말도 못해
I want you 바래도 다시 바래도

니가 너무 보고싶은 날엔 너무 견디기 힘든 날에는

너를 사랑한다 입가에 맴돌아
혼자 다시 또 Crying for you

니가 너무 생각나는 날엔 가슴 시리고 슬픈 날에는
니가 보고싶다 입가에 맴돌아
혼자 다시 또 Crying for you
혼자 다시 또 Missing for you
Baby I love you, I’m waiting for you

English ver.

because i’m so foolish, i know only you
you who are looking at someone else, you probably don’t know my heart

there is no me in your day, probably not even in your memories
but i’m looking at only you as my tears continue to fall

i’m happy with looking at your back figure
though you still don’t know my heart
though at the end, you’ll just brush past me

the days that i miss you so much
the days when it’s too hard to bear
the words “i love you” are dancing on my lips
once again, alone, crying for you
once again, alone, missing for you
baby, i love you. i’m waiting for you

there is no me in your day, probably not even in your memories
but i’m looking at only you, making memories by myself

to me, love is like a beautiful wound
even though i see your pretty smile, i can’t smile with you

the days that i miss you so much
the days when it’s too hard to bear
the words “i miss you” are dancing on my lips
once again, alone, crying for you
once again, alone, missing for you
baby, i love you. i’m waiting for you

bye bye, never say goodbye
though i can’t hold onto you
i need you, i can’t say anything else
i want you, i’ll wish and wish again

the days that i miss you so much
the days when it’s too hard to bear
the words “i love you” are dancing on my lips
once again, alone, crying for you

the days when you fill up my thoughts
the days when my heart grows cold and i’m sad
the words “i miss you” are dancing on my lips
once again, alone, crying for you
once again, alone, missing for you
baby, i love you. i’m waiting for you

hahaha...
x

I just want it to be like before

2009-04-01T23:00:00.000+11:00

.. this is like the worse feeling every in my whole life.. it feels like i've lost one of my closest friend .. a person i could share my thoughts and my feelings to.. now it feels like he has just gone.. and its all because of one guy... is it worth it.. ?

i get so sad/upset whenever he talks abt chichi... chichi this chichi that.. alrite i fucking get it man.. your never talking to me, and its because of him
wat happen to you?...
everything changed!!...

all i want is the old you back.
the old you when i cud share everything to you.
that i could actually TALK to you...
now everything that i could do before
is just gone.. its like i dont even exist in your life
anymore......
i never wanna tell you all this..
because you wouldnt wanan listen.
it'll just be a bother to you...

might as well leave now than later huh..
i really dont know wat to do anymore...
all i want is to be before.. thats all im asking.

xMishaL

Duma concac

2009-03-31T08:37:00.000+11:00

mood : down

life sucks.. its been 3 days since i unblocked my bro.. last week on monday, i blocked him because i just want his time with him and his bf and just to forget about him.. yeah.. and after unblocking him.. it felt different.. between me and him.. i dont know wat happen. maybe it was me? maybe its his new bf.. or as he said before. its his studies.. he has 4 exams coming up and thats why he doesnt say much.. but i dont believe in that too.. even before saying that he needs to study, hes been different .. i dont know wat to believe in right now. =\

all i want is us to be the same. like before.. i hate this feeling.
i wont want us to change.. and i fucking miss him heaps
i wrote like 2 paragraph long saying stufff like i miss him
and all he wrote back was. 'ok' .. is that the biggest bitch
or wat?..... i got so cut. fucking dickhead.. >=[

far out. fuck all this. i aint gna tell him anything. im gna be JUST
like him. he doesnt express his feeelings out wen hes upset, or something
is bothering him. if he wants it that way. im gna be a bitch .
i wont show any emotions nor affection to him. farrrrrrrr

for the ppl reading this blog. eg.
my frends or something. i know u guys are like WTF?
lol i dont think u'll get it but yeahh..... dw :) lOLSs..

anyways a random topic. 2008 movies..

'Marley & Me' and 'BOLT'
two dog movies which is absolutely cute! its a must watch =]

Marley & me is about a couple adopting a puppy which is a labardor and he messes up the house and is so rough.. at the end of the story he becomes the most loving dog...

and BOLT is about a dog who thinks that he is in real life action daily life which he escapes to find his owner 'penny' but realised that he doesnt have any powers and lives in a real life ordinary world.

xMishaL .

Reminiscence

2009-03-25T22:46:00.000+11:00

i miss him..

boo...
new story here..

I never thought that I'd fall in love, love, love, love
But it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush
Being without you boy, Im all messed up, up, up, up

i can't sleep til yur back here with me
Feels like insomnia, Feels like insomnia
Feels like insomnia, Feels like insomnia .

tsk. どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう? 。

so stupid...

WTF!?! =[

2009-03-16T20:54:00.000+11:00

mood: stressed :(

duma. i slept around 6 and woke up nearly reaching 9am, was plannin 2 sleep more but noOooo i ws thkn abts my stupid bro and see if he hd sed anything and he did, so i woke.
i saw this hot hot hot sexyy guy on his dp . straight away i tott it was him LOL i dun noe y cuz hes tanned mayb? n thinh got nice body ISH . LOLOL
im liek hus dat
he said its him
im liekBULLSHIT. jst to test him and found out it wasnt him!
it was MOKOMICHI . XD

sexy can i?! :D

ahahaha . i dun noe wat yu guys thnk but to me.
THAT IS ONE SEXY MAN THERE ;)

ehehehhe .........
after awhile i check to see if any gay guy is online i added from fridae is on..( did that make sense? LOL) n one guy is.. i started talkn to him a bit..
it was a bit IFFY.. and hes like do u have foto im like yeahh its on my dp (me and dog) and hes like yur a puppy. and then i was abts 2 reply the nxt thing u no it .hes offline..
i think he DELETED ME.. FUCKK =_= wat a bitch a gay guy can be!!!
>=[ hmpffff lol..

grrr.. oh and another thing that happen today i was at the veterinary workn today and i was in the office ..
i walked out to the operation room and to find this 2 guys crying.. *sniff* and with a big black dog with them.. in my head was.. *omg he looks gay* lol .. im serious .. that was the first thing in my mind then i thought *why are they crying? i thnk their gona kill their dog =[ * and after a while i found out that it was their fav. client.. they would come to here every now and then and visit them .. and .. guess wat.. they were a gay couple!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HOW CUTEEE OMGGGG i knew i was right.. and that made it more upset for me coz their gay and their dog was gna be put down.. i saw it wrapped in the bag and put aside in the freezer .... it was a hard moment for me and for the workers there... my manager was crying...
der der debbie =[ .

anyways END IT ON A HAPPY NOTE.
wooot. fucking 4 more SHIT TO DO till saturday.

st george pathway centre @ hurst - tuesday after school
early child hood assignment - wednesday.
catch up on hospo/ revise for IPT test - thursday
IPT examination - Friday

and then theres loads of other shit next week but i cannot remember liao..
fuking english exam is commming up too..
=\ im so gona FAIL LOL.
mehh .

x

Passion coming to sydney

2009-03-15T17:26:00.000+11:00

hi just another blog.

Passion, known as Jeremy is comming to sydney. Hes doing 2 gigs in here
one at Rooty Hill & circular quay.

Hes a singer and got famous from youtube.
one of my fav.

april 12 , $30 pre sold and $35 at door.

hope to you all there!

Secret behind why i really like gays

2009-03-15T11:53:00.000+11:00

i think becuase in my previously life .. i was a gay basher.

lolololol.. hhehehehehheehheheheehehe.

im just joking. i dun noe if i was or not.. O_O;

ee.. o yehh jst wanna blog because to tell yu guys abt
this gay porn i just downloaded 2 days ago.

its called 'sweets' the company is Go guy +

he reminds me of eric LOL!

his face shape i meant.. heh heh..

first.

2009-03-12T22:25:00.000+11:00

hi. i dont really know wat to write here. ive decided to make a blog. it seems pretty fun..
i wanna make a blog becuase of rob.
his blogs are funny and stuff..
but im still trying to figure out how to do the layout for blogspot ><
argh.. someone just teach me........
i wish i can write something interesting here.. lol
o wells.

anyways i'll end it here for now.. on try to find out how to
do the layout for this shit! >.>