its 12:30am. i havent updated for ages.. i dont see a point to it
as no one even reads it. lots of things been gng thru my head
dis holiday.. i tot i could spend time wid thinh and talk 2 him. but i ws wrong..
total opposite for me! either i was busy with easter show or he'll be with his bf or at his boyfriends house.. and even when we talk.
its only for a while until his bf calls, i dont wanna hold any grudges agaisnt him but.. he really gets in my head sometimes... okey...
dis is wat happen with thinh..... his comp is stuffed up and
nt unable to go on, so i cannot even contact at him at all.
wen i sms him.. he replies back sometimes with short msgs..
i would say 'i miss you' but i never get an answer back.. i really miss him..
on tues i msgd him asking him how his second day of school
he said he'll be at chichi's house soon and he'll talk to me there... so i waited
he went on i was happy to actually get to talk to him again. it just made my day..
then after seeing his bf on webcam with him.. chichi trying to kiss thinhs cheeks .........
the same time i think its really cute when their together but it oso makes me extremly jealous and it hurts so much inside..
but i just put on a smile and act like nothing happen.. after that we talked for like an hour or so? im not sure..
suddenly,
chichi says somethign to thinh.
thinh - chichi wants me. he wants to hug me cos he said he havnt hugged me in a while and wants me to go on the bed with him
well obviously i cannt say anything can i?
so i just said okay then go ahead.
so i let him go off and he went off webcam..
but when i think about it..
he has thinh every day for a week.. i rarely even talk to him anymore because of chichi..
AND he cant even spend at least 2 hours or more tlakn to me gettn disturbed by chichi saying he wants thinh..
why he takn thinh away from MY time talkin to him....
i dont get it......
i really just want to forget him.. but i love him very much..
stupid huh.. falling for gay guys...
lets just hope this is the last time i ever do fall for a gay guy..
okey lets forget that now lah.. lately, been going easter show
and outings. :) with daniel and anna's tutoring friends.
AND guess wat. one of their friends was apparently vince.
when it was daniel and naomi's bday and i heard vince was going
i was excited that he going cus i finall get 2 actually see him and
talk to him ^^ i dun noe y but i get happy lols
i saw him ~~ i was happy. later we went K
but he had to go some other K and i was liek noooooooo :[
lol and obviously i cudnt dog anna and esp the bday ppl..
so i stayed in their K but it was alrite.. it was pretty fun
ahah ^^
lolme and tiff were the one
s that werent posingWHOPSSSSS !!!
ahh. o wells.. :)
on monday i went easter show with my grp.. for the 3rd time..
i went on those scary rides.. just for the fun of it..
coz i neveerrrrr everrrr go on rides.
>< LOL but it was a funnnn expereince haha
after that me and anna left to go city to meet up with
helen,daniel,adrian,micheal and vince
lol again. i dun noe y i was happy to see vincee.
too bad he couldnt stay out later. =[
but besides that ... we went to eat jap food
and went to darling habour to talk..
it got late
left around 10:30..
now to talk about today
y reason the whole blog was ment for~~~
.. nearly the whole day ive been talkn to vince just abt his life
so glad he told me everything.. i feel happy when someone tells me abt their life. it makes me feel a that they trust me. and right now i need it .. i need a replacement for thinhs absence.. at least hes making me snap out of my depression..
lol i feel like giving vince a big hug LOLLLLL :)
^_^
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