people say
''why are you still holding on to him? He's gay.''
well, if you have fallen for someone, you cant help who your attracted to.. whether its a girl or guy, what counts is in the inside. For quite a while now, i've been having feelings for my close gay friend called Thinh. I treat him as a brother and he treats me as a sister, we would share things to each other he would always be there for me and support me through times. After a months long of getting to know him our webcam sessions became daily, then i started to develop a somewhat jealousy feeling around him. Like; whenever he'll talk about a guy or when he rambles on about this guy. The jealousy aroused and i felt that it was a bit unusual for me to even be feeling like this, then it hit me... i had feelings for him, when i realised that, i wanted it to stop immediately or make it go away but it was too late, my feelings for him was stronger than i expected it to be...
So letting it as it is, my feelings for him became stronger as time went by. I really did want this to stop because i know the result of this. It will lead me to know where because hes gay. It was selfish of me to think that we could actually have something together.
But we all know what the result was.............
i'll stop here and update the next part of this.
Cause i need to be in bed right now its nearly 2am and i have to wake up for school in approximately 5 hours time. so im pretty sure i'll be having my infamous panda eyes again.
i wish it could be that cute when i have my panda eyes =_=
x
So letting it as it is, my feelings for him became stronger as time went by. I really did want this to stop because i know the result of this. It will lead me to know where because hes gay. It was selfish of me to think that we could actually have something together.
But we all know what the result was.............
i'll stop here and update the next part of this.
Cause i need to be in bed right now its nearly 2am and i have to wake up for school in approximately 5 hours time. so im pretty sure i'll be having my infamous panda eyes again.
i wish it could be that cute when i have my panda eyes =_=Another note ;
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Marvin called me and i was hesitating to pick up, yes.. im shy :) but somehow i manage to pick up his phone call.
and let me tell you, what a HAPPY CHEERFUL guy he is ^^ well he sounded like one lol. We talked about this issue that i came upon which i would like to be remained private. I guess you can say, he helped me in a way (:
and no im not going to post up every phone call i get. Its just that, i don't really have people calling me and making time to admonish me.
thanks brother, marvz
He is a man that's indescribable =]
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Marvin called me and i was hesitating to pick up, yes.. im shy :) but somehow i manage to pick up his phone call.
and let me tell you, what a HAPPY CHEERFUL guy he is ^^ well he sounded like one lol. We talked about this issue that i came upon which i would like to be remained private. I guess you can say, he helped me in a way (:
and no im not going to post up every phone call i get. Its just that, i don't really have people calling me and making time to admonish me.
thanks brother, marvz
He is a man that's indescribable =]
x
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