i am a FAILURE.
is what i perceive myself as... i am a major failure in general... today in our hospo class we got out assessment marks back, and what did i get?..
67%......
67%!!!
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okay i know im not good in my subjects but when i saw that and especially in one of my favourite class.. i thought, straight away.. im a total failure.. the international student girl in front of me even got higher than me. she got 84%...
I bet right now, everyone will say, 'its your own fault, if u dont study u get shit marks'.. well i do study its just that i cant concentrate as well if i dont physically do the thing. anyways, im not making sense here at the moment..
all i know that im a failure.. in life
im not smart, im not beautiful, im not a person who can socialise and get along with others easily..
in fact im the total opposite.. im dumb, ugly, not to mention fat and boring.. im nothing. everyone has at least something but i have nothing. nothing is good about me.. funny how one thing becomes into something else...i really wonder sometimes, what if i was no longer in this world anymore i dont think it will make much impact on people.. okay, maybe a couple of close friends and family here and there.. but big woop..like anyone cares.. argh asfdghjlk i dont know why im even thinking of this.. maybe this is karma...
i have to admit, i've done some bad things in the past.. worst things you can imagine. All i want to do it to forget and let it go.. i want to ERASE EVERYTHING.
FUCK
and now to the people ;
to the people i've hurted or that i didnt realised that i've hurt them in some sort of way. I am truly & deeply sorry for all the pain i've caused you. I never ever wanted to hurt you nor wanted it to happen that way. I think you know who you are once you have read this. The loving friendship we had just went away like that and i am the cause of it. It was foolish of me to do such things, but now i've change and hope to make things better for us. Again, i will say it one more time. i am truly and deeply sorry. x
67%......
67%!!!
ookay i know im not good in my subjects but when i saw that and especially in one of my favourite class.. i thought, straight away.. im a total failure.. the international student girl in front of me even got higher than me. she got 84%...
I bet right now, everyone will say, 'its your own fault, if u dont study u get shit marks'.. well i do study its just that i cant concentrate as well if i dont physically do the thing. anyways, im not making sense here at the moment..
all i know that im a failure.. in life
im not smart, im not beautiful, im not a person who can socialise and get along with others easily..
in fact im the total opposite.. im dumb, ugly, not to mention fat and boring.. im nothing. everyone has at least something but i have nothing. nothing is good about me.. funny how one thing becomes into something else...i really wonder sometimes, what if i was no longer in this world anymore i dont think it will make much impact on people.. okay, maybe a couple of close friends and family here and there.. but big woop..like anyone cares.. argh asfdghjlk i dont know why im even thinking of this.. maybe this is karma...
i have to admit, i've done some bad things in the past.. worst things you can imagine. All i want to do it to forget and let it go.. i want to ERASE EVERYTHING.
FUCK
and now to the people ;
to the people i've hurted or that i didnt realised that i've hurt them in some sort of way. I am truly & deeply sorry for all the pain i've caused you. I never ever wanted to hurt you nor wanted it to happen that way. I think you know who you are once you have read this. The loving friendship we had just went away like that and i am the cause of it. It was foolish of me to do such things, but now i've change and hope to make things better for us. Again, i will say it one more time. i am truly and deeply sorry. x
- sympathy
xoxo Mishelle`
xoxo Mishelle`
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