the loudness and happiness became to lonely, quiet....... which leads to sadness...
i miss my mum so much.... i've cried every single night.. i just miss her so much..
u know.. maybe the people who reads this doesnt know how im feeling at the moment.... getting seperated from your mother at the age of 12.. the stage where you quite yet still dont know what is happening and why 'mummy' has to leave. Though still understood that parents didnt get along together. That year was the hardest for me to accept the fact that she had to leave - to go overseas.
Every year, around december my sister and i would visit her and enjoy the time that we had.. Few years later, getting older, i finally knew what was going on and why 'mummy' had to leave and slowly, in malaysia between my mother and her mother's sister (ah yee) got into a huge fight.. technically it wasnt a fight... the story is kept hidden as i do not want people knowing about it.. but all i can tell u is that the situation caused my mum and them to go to police and bottles throwing around... and it was all because of rumor.. it was all about us...
i will never forgive that person who destroyed my mother's reputation, her scars on her body, the trouble her 'ah yee' caused her..... thats why i dont want to leave her side.. after all the pain she went thru.. although she had a lot of helper and supporter....
This time going back to malaysia, spending time with my mummy and bonding our relationship again, made me realised more and more things.. leaving a mother is the hardest thing to do for a mum and the child..... for the boys who read this.. MAY or MAY not understand the feeling of the mother's beloved child when leaving them.
Thats why you could say, right now im a mummy's little girl.
mummy .. =[
Chelle.
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